I am having one of those days , I want a baby so badly day. Watching Avery play with her baby dolls and be all Motherly to them, brought tears to my eyes. I want that BFP so I can once again take care of a baby. Those baby smells and sounds make my heart melt. I want that so badly and it is so hard to look at Avery and think it may never happen for us again. It breaks my heart. I truly believe not having more children would effect her life, in some way. Also having another child will effect her life as well. So either way our IF will be influencing her life. It is all overwhelming.
STORY (as promised)
We were at a Yard Sale yesturday (selling) and a lady asked my MOM what sizes the childrens clothes were, when my MOM answered she said to the lady "well how old are your children?" the lady almost jumped my MOM with hugs, saying thank you thank you for not syaing my grnadchildren, and she went on to tell my MOM she has 2, one boy and one girl twins that are 1 1/2. They went through IF. My MOM then started telling her about us and how we are having trouble. SO by this time I get the end of the conversation and the lady calls me over, tells me here entire IF story (took 16 years of trying, 1 IVF with donor eggs and she got her twins at the age of 48!!!) I congratulated her and told her that we are hoping not to move to IUI or IVF b/c of paying out of pocket but if it comes down to that IUI is all we can afford. She wished me well, gave me some tips on dealing with IF and told me if my RE's office is not working well to see her RE office. Now I did not know there was 2 RE's offices in my area, now I know. It was nice to see a success story, gives me hope since I am only 29. But it still scares the crap out of me, I am afraid it will never happen again for me.
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It's nice to hear success stories, they do bring me some hope. But I also worry, what if we don't get to become a success story.
I could see how the story would give hope but also instill fear. I guess in the end it comes back to having faith that whats meant to happen for you, will happen. But thats hard to do, I know. Hang in there, Im always thinking about you!
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