24 hour pee bucket

That is what I did today, since there was so much protein in my urine and it was not a bladder infection, they wanted me to do the 24 hour pee bucket today, you get the idea. I did this before when I was pregnant with DD but that time I was 38 weeks and on bed rest, so I was at home. This was harder, since I had to work today and the Pee Bucket needed to be kept cold. Hoping for good news, b/c everything I see on the internet for protein in the urine this early in prenancy is not good. I think kidney disease was thrown around alot. I also worry that this will end up putting me on bedrest early and we cannot afford that at all since I will no be paid. Yuck, well gotta go pee in my bucket.

Update from DR appt...

I had my cauterization today, yuck. It hurt, not like I remembered and she made me bled, I am not sure if she knew that so now every time I pee it hurts. They plan on putting me on antibotics if it comes back infected, she told me that most pregnant women do not know they have a UTI and it is common, I did have one early on with DD and did not know it. Feel like history is repeating itself.

Afterwards the DR came in to talk to me and asked if I wanted to hear the baby's heart beat, she could not find it and finally gave up. She told me she would find someone else to find it and if they could not get it they would send me for a u/s. Well the second PA found it, 180 exactly. Again history repeating itself, DD's heart rate was always high early on and never went below 155. I was so happy to hear the heartbeat on the doopler but wish I would have ahd a u/s.

All well here, just really tired and so unmotivated, I need to get stuff done and I have a busy week with Halloween coming.

Protein in my urine :(

Not the title you probably want to read about. I got a call from the OB today saying they want me to come in Monday morning for a cauterization b/c they found protein in my urine. I had this with my daughter when i was 7 weeks, so I know the drill but nonetheless I am not happy. Mostly likely it is a UTI that i do not know abut or some of the progesterone I am taking is causing it. But I hope all is well.

I am thinking I may ask if they can find the baby's HB on the doppler while I am there, I will be a little early but just maybe we could hear it, I will be 5 days shy if 10 weeks.

First Appt update...

I know you all are waiting on pins and needles for a update from yesterdays appt. Sorry it took me so long, I had school last night and worked all day today. I am so tired and need a vacation.

The appt went great! HB was 175 and the baby was wiggling around. My DD's HB was 178 at 9 weeks. I was so nervous after the brown spotting which has turned to brown CM. The u/s tech said everything looked great and that there was no blood collecting anywhere to be concerned. Also the Nurse told me during my PAP that there was brown blood collecting around my cervix, which was fine and probably from the progesterone supps, they irritate your cervix after a while and she believes this is were Sunday nights spotting happened. I am still spotting but I and thinking she knocked some of that blood around while doing my pap, if it is not gone by Friday I plan on calling, but I bled from my HSG for over a week. It felt good knowing the HB was Great and the baby was wiggling around. I get another u.s at 12 weeks, I am not sure if I can wait till then. Then I will not have another u.s until 20 weeks, that is after Christmas. I hope we can find out the sex. Thanks for all the wishes and prayers yesterday i greatly appreciate it and hoping that this will calm me down now and I can talk about this as if it will actually happen now.

I took my Snack Basket to the RE after the appt, my favorite nurse was the one I gave the basket to for the staff. She was so excited to see me and hugged me and told me she was so happy everything was going so well. She made me promise to bring the baby in after it was born. I thought I was going to cry. I miss my RE office so much.

SPOTTING oh no!

I had some spotting last night, two times just brown.Of course when I first saw it I was so upset, called my Mom crying. I waiting till the am to call the OB b/c they would have told me unless it was red they could not do anything. I had some brown mucus come out this morning. So I talked to the OB nurse this AM and she had me go for a rhogam shot. I spotting brown with my DD at 7 weeks, I am 8 weeks now. She said that it was old blood coming out or my progesterone supps may have aggravated my cervix. I felt better knowing they were not concerned and had me come in for the shot. I am looking forward to seeing the baby tomorrow I hope all is well. Please pray it is.

When I went to get my b/w this morning the nurse was training she did not want to take my blood and I told her I was all right with her practicing on me. She did fine and she thanked me a million times afterwards. I told her I was used to it b/c of all the b/w I had done while TTC and going through IF. Then when I went to get my shot the lady was very cautious with me and kept saying that unfortunately this shot had to go in the butt and it would probably pinch, I looked at her almost laughing, I said no big deal, I had to give myself shots in the butt while trying to get pregnant, she looked confused, so I told her I went through IF, she said OK then you are a pro.

It was weird b/c when I was pregnant the first time the thought of giving blood and getting shots turned my stomach now it is second nature. IF has really helped me get over those things.

Please pray for a healthy HEARTBEAT! And for the spotting to stay away.

Nerves have set back in...

Remember I said I was getting nervous about the u/s on tuesday, while today i almost had a nervous break down. Why? I am so scared to go and nothing be there, crazy huh. I know something will be there, I just want the HB to be strong and still beating away. My symptoms have stopped, I am still tired but no sore BBs and no nausea at all. I am scared. Please pray for my sanity. I really do not think I will relax until this baby is moving and I can feel it. I do not want to wish away my pregnancy just want to know everything is alright.

PAPERS ARE DONE!!!

Yes I spent the entire day doing my midterm papers, I am happy to report all 4 are done and my Aunt is correcting them for me and Monday I will make my corrections and be done. I did get in a 2 hour nap with DD so that was nice.

I did have a slight worrisome day today. I went to fill my PNV today and the Pharmacist told me that my PNV was recalled several weeks ago, I kind of freaked, he could not tell me why b/c he is a sub on the weekends, but I put a call into the OB, they never called me back. Guess they are not concerned and probably think I am a freak. But I have been taking these vitamins for over a year. I got out my Target Brand this morning and took them instead. I am worried they will not help prevent birth defects and I can not find anything on the Internet about the recall, just that they were recalled no purpose to the recall. I was so besides myself. I know it is crazy to be so upset over PNV but now I am afraid. Dh tried to make light and said in a joking mater well we will have a huge lawsuit on our hands if something goes wrong, not funny.

I have my appt. on Tuesday for my 1st OB appt and another u/s I went into my panic mode tonight thinking what if there is no heartbeat. I know we saw a great HB of 139last time but it still worries me. I am getting my thirst back and drinking alot more and had some more cramping today, but that could be from sitting in a hard chair all day writing my apers.

Hoping the next two days go by fast I can not Wait to see my baby again. I am also going alone this time. So that will be weird b/c my Mom has gone with me the last 2 two times.

NATIONAL INFERTILITY AWARENESS WEEK

Since next week is NATIONAL INFERTILITY WEEK I wanted to do something to commemorate it. I thought long about this, many of the ladies on the nest mentioned they are planning on donating to RESOLVE which I thought about doing and I also wanted to send one of my TTTC sisters something special. Both ideas sound great but I think I know what I am doing.

I plan on making a snack basket for my RE office. I have to go to my OB appt. on Tuesday which is the same office as my RE just upstairs. On the way there I have to stop in the office to drop of my sharps container. So I thought I would make up a basket with a note attached to it saying something like " thank you for helping to create tiny miracles- NATIONAL AWARENESS INFERTITLY WEEK" I hope they would allow the patients to take snacks too. I am excited about this idea. I am just not sure if I want to do individual snack packs or make cookies or something. I will probably go with individual snacks of chips pretzels and candy.

I just thought I would do somehting special for the RE office b/c they are so amazing!

What do you think?

My fear

Well not really a fear, just has me a little concerned these days. When I got pregnant the first time I was a tight size 10 louse size 12. I gained a total of 42 pounds, I ate healthy but I ate alot and ate cake every chance I got. After I had her I was a size 18, got myself down to a size 14, which I am now. IF medications and stress did not help, I am still 10 pounds heavier then I was the first time I got pregnant.

I planned on watching my weight gain this time around. I know weight gain is good for the baby and I totally plan to gain. But I do not want to gain as much as last time. I may have gone a little too far on the cake last time. One thing I loved aout being pregnant is it did not matter how big I got I still loved my pregnant body it was the post baby body I hated. I want my goal to be no more then 30 pounds of weight gain, being I am already over weight for my size, I will probably be told not to gain much.


What worries me is since I feel naseous most of the day, I am eating anything that appeals to me at the time, in some cases, it has been cake, red velvet whoopie pies to be exact. which are hard to get my hands on now. BUt I ate 5 this weekend. Not good. Also I have been drinking alot of SPRITE b/c water turns my stomache, so all those empty calories can not be good. But I keep reminding myself I have to eat and if it does not appeal to me,I probably will not eat. Also I have noticed once I eat I feel better, so maybe I should eat more often, smaller portions.

So there you have it, nervous about weight gain, for after post baby, but maybe this time I will be able to breastfeed this time to lose some of that extra weight.


SCHOOL UPDATE: ONe paper done, only three to go. Lord help me. This is horrible.

Need to vent!

I am tried but that is OK, part of being pregnant which I am so happy about. What I am not happy about is school. It sucks. We have a take home midterm due on Oct 21st. All our work in class has been papers, and the midterm is no exception. We have four questions to answer in a 2-4 page paper. This happens every week. We read 100-150 pages and then have to write a 2-4 page paper. The problem I have is these are considered reaction papers. Our opinion. They are worth 3 points each, my last paper he gave me a 1, yes a 1. I answered the questions he wanted and he in not so many words told me that my opinion was wrong. So basically if I do not write about what he wants us to write about we are wrong. Personally I think he gives too much work at once, b/c 75% of the people in my class work full time and the rest part time. I am lucky to only be taking 1 class, while many of the people in my class are taking more then one. I am not saying that the amount of work he give out is wrong, but we are unable to work ahead. He also in my opinion has high expectations. I am nervous about these midterm papers, b/c if I do not get a least a B in the class my work will not pay for the semester. Being pregnant has not helped my motivation. I am getting my Masters for my job, more money and more time off, which I am not totally sure I will get anyways. I know that I will be taking a medical leave next semester so i am enjoy this pregnancy and my last few months with a only child. But this whole semester has me so stressed out. I just want to cry. I am totally burnt out on writing papers. It sucks.

Will not be posting a pic :(

My scanner makes the picture too dark. You can not see anything at all. How do people put up their u/s pictures? Any advice? Should I take a picture with my camera?

To tired to do anything...

I am really pushing myself. I know I should not be doing that, but when things need to be done I need to do them. Perparing for holiday ebay sales has been put on the back burner, until I get my midterm done. I really need to get my office ready for the holiday sales, which tend to start in Nov.


I plan on telling work on Friday I am pregnant, we have a staff meeting and everyone but my boss will be there. Plan on telling him closer to when I am 12 weeks. I know they will be happy for me b/c they are probably tired fo hearing me complain.

I looked at the u/s picture a million times today, just to remind myself, that yes this is real. Still planning on getting it up. Not much to look at now, but I am already in love.

OMG I am really pregnant!

We have a heartbeat. I am so relived.

When the u/s tech first started she went straight to my ovary to check the cyst first, which made the nerves even worst. The she showed the little itty baby, which looked like a peanut. There was a strong heartbeat from being onl 6w 4d, at 138. I also got to hear the heart beat! It was amazing, I started crying when I heard the heartbeat, b/c it became real. We met with the RE DR afterwards and he says my miscarriage risk is down to 5% and after my next u/s with the OB in 2 weeks it will be down to 2%. He said e was very pleased, was concerned about my levels pre O, but everything turned itself around. I am so grateful that I made it this far and so excited for my first OB appt. We are going to tell extended family and my Ils this week. I also am on the hunt for a BIG SISTER book to read to DD.

WOW I am really pregnant. Crazy!

Hoping to post pic of the u/s when I get home.

Thanks everyone for all the prayers and well wishes, I am so grateful to have such suportive blog readers, it is amazing. Praying for you all.

tomorrow is the big day...

U/S day! I am nervous but excited. I go from it will all work out and we will see a healthy heartbeat to OMG what am I going to do if the baby did not progress. It is all so scary becasue I love this baby already so much. Everytime I am snuggling with Avery I think I am actually snuggling with both my little ones, it is so seareal. Wish me luck and pray we see a healthy heartbeat!

The pressure is getting to me.

I am counting down the days until our next u/s, I am praying for a little heart beat. I looked up everything possible today (I should be doing my paper) about early miscarriage (I know shot me) and what a u/s should look like at 6week, how early people saw heartbeats etc. I googled everything, nothing made me feel better. I think this is what IF does to you. While going through treatment all you want is to see those two lines, everything is so unknown. Will I ever get pregnant again, will this medical treatment work for me, can we afford this? So much has gone through my mind in the last year. Once I saw those two pink lines, nothing really changed my anxiety level. The unknown is back. I know I have a little sac in there who looked as it should and everyone at the Re's office sound so optimistic that we will see a heartbeat this week. But I am worried. It is back to the unknown. I do not know what is going on in there. I pray everyday to let this baby be healthy and join our family in May. I love it so uch already I hold my stomach at night just to be able to hold me tiny baby. The waiting is killing me. I thought once I see a heart beat I would probably feel so much better, but now I think I will worry until I am 12 weeks. I wish I could stop this, it probably is not good for the baby. I am so grateful we are expecting again. Avery deserves to be a big sister and I deserve to be a mother again. But sometimes I am trying to not get my hopes up just in case.

I was trying to take a nap today and DH asked me what was wrong, I guess I look like hell I am so tired. I told him I did not feel well and was tired his response was "you know why" I thought he was going to say something sarcastic but he said "because you are pregnant" WOW I am pregnant. Who would have know with all this worrying I am doing.

So tired.

I try to blog everyday but lately I have been so tired. I have so much to do for school that sleeping is becoming a luxury. Nothing new to report. I have my u/s Tuesday and praying to see a heartbeat. Will keep everyone updated.


I have so much to do this weekend, I have to read 150 pages for school and write a four page paper, not sure how anyone does anything else if they are taking more then one class. I also decided that next semester I am taking a medical leave, not sure I can handle this being pregnant. I also want to prepare my ebay office for the upcoming Christmas sales. My office is a disaster. I plan on taking before and after pics, will post them. Hopfully I can get a lot done this weekend, I plan on not leaving the house.

24 hours of Bliss

That was all. I was excited for about 24 hours after my u/s, then I got worried again. I am praying so hard that there will be a healthy heartbeat and a healthy baby with this pregnancy. I am hoping after I see a heartbeat I can relax a little. This week seems to be dragging.

I have been doing good, just very very tired, which is not good when you have a toddler, but I am trying. I had class last night and had the worst stomach cramps and gas pain, so I felt like crap and of course I had to sit at a desk for three hours during this. So far nothing really to report. I am having sore boobs and nausea in the monring but not bad at all, I just do not want to eat breakfast. Lunch I am starving and then at dinner I am back to feeling not so hot maybe b/c I am so tired. I plan to embrace this pregnancy 100% once I know the baby is OK, I think that I do not want to get too attached until I know there is a heartbeat, too many people close to me last week lost babies, my friend and my sister. Hope everyone is doing well. Can't wait to hear updates.