New baby in the family...

Well my Aunt had a baby boy last night, they did not know the sex (not by choice) and I really thought it was a girl. I also thought if they have a girl I will definately have a boy, now they threw me off. We went to see him and he is adorable and kinda made me wish I had mine already, but then I do not want to wish away my pregnancy at all, I want this to last forever, but with knowing what gender the baby is. I know, this is a theme with me, but I am impatient.

In another way it made me realize how lucky they are to NOT have Fertility issues to have this baby, and that made me jealous. I am going to carry this IF feeling forever it seems, b/c it comes up alot in my life.

I know my sister will be pregnant again soon, and those feeling will come back to haunt me again, in a way I want to be pregnant by myself b/c I worked so hard to get here and in a way I want people to know that and acknowledge it, b/c I went through hell. I guess I am selfish but I feel this baby is so special b/c of all the tears and heart break we went through to get pregnant.

I guess seeing new babies even though I am also pregnant, makes me feel the pain IF caused me all over again. And I wish it did not do that.

The Good and the Bad of my Day.

The Good

We had our NT scan today, which was so much fun b/c I took DD with me and she was wide eyed the entire time. Everything looked perfect and they are not concerned at this point but we still have the b/w to see. The Baby was moving all over the place (u/s tech said the baby was getting mad b/c she was poking at it- b/c when she first put the probe on me it was sleeping) and HB was 166. There was not a gender guess, she told us it was too early and I tried to look for the nub area (have been studying up) and saw nothing. At least I could not make it out. My BIG u/s is scheduled for 1/08

The Bad

Prior to the appointment I was running after the dog who was being naughty and I tripped over a box, and fell and heard my ankle crack. Freaked out a little b/c I do not have a phone in the house right now, only phone I had was in the car. I was able to get up and walk, went to the OB appt, and they suggested I have it looked at in case it was broken. It was not broken thank goodness, just very badly sprained. So now I am in a air cast and am to stay off my feet for 5 days, yeah right not with w/ 2 year old. Plus I was planning on doing some Christmas shopping Friday and clean all weekend, guess that is not happening. Just glad it is not broke.

So I spent most my day at the Hospital for Dr appt and in the ER, YUCK. At least the Dr appt was fun.

Hope everyone else's day was good.

NT Scan tomorrow

So excited to see the baby but really nervous about the results. My Mom and DD are going with I thought DD would love to see her new little sibling. Wish me luck! Maybe I will get to see a good shot of the nub and even guess the gender.

Bitty Baby

Here is our Bitty Baby at 11w5d, sorry so blurry I took a pic of it b/c our scanner is crap. ENJOY!

12 weeks.

Almost out of my 1st Trimester. Let me tell you I am feeling better, still tired but getting alot more done these days. Glad things are looking up b/c TOY season is coming for EBAY and I need all the energy I can get for that, it can get crazy.

My Mom made a gender prediction for this baby, she does for most of the people in my family. She is usually correct. But I am not sharing it just yet.

I am spending most of my time doing gender predictor tests, I am so impatient and had to reframe from buying both pink and blue the other day at Target just to satisfy me. I wish we would know before Christmas, but that will probably not happen.

This for me is the hardest thing about pregnancy not knowing what it will be and I hate surprises.

I have two papers to write this weekend, I have to re-do one that I got a awful grade on and the other I am just adding some extra things to make it better. I am struggling in school right now, probably because for the last 9 weeks I have been so tired. I am glad I decided to take next semester off to prepare for the baby, I need it.

Got to see the baby today...

why you ask, b/c I am stupid. Enough said

The baby was right on track and the HB was 175, they moved my NT scan until the 25th, the baby was a little small measuring on time but small she felt adding a fews more days from teh orginial date wold get better measurments. I was suppost to have it on Monday. I was excited to see the baby. Can not wait to see what we are having. I asked her about guessing gender at 13weeks 3 days which is what i will be at teh NT Scan, she said she probably will not guess but we can look and speculate. FUN!

Gender

With my NT scan coming up next week I am thinking more and more what this baby could be. I have no Mother's intuition about it. I felt my DD was going to be a girl but did not feel strongly about it until we had our BIG U/S and she did not cooperate. This time I am so back and forth about it, I would be happy with either but not knowing is driving me crazy.

Reasons I think it is a BOY:
Little to no m/s (did not have any with DD)
My DH wants a boy so badly
I had a psychic tell me it is a BOY (I know great reason)but she was correct with BFP month and the month I am due in.
RE guessed BOY
I had a dream I was having a BOY
The spare room in our house is white and red ready for a boy
After our first u/s were we saw the HB I thought BOY

Reasons I think it is a GIRL:
HB was 180 at 8 weeks, (DD HB was 180 at 9 weeks)
I a craving sweets, candy mostly
Gender prediction says girl
Everyone tells me it will be a GIRL
DD talks about her baby sister all the time, she even told my ILs she was going to have a baby sister (DH argues with her about it)
When I think about the future I think in GIRL
At my u/s at 8 weeks I started thinking it could be a girl
So far this pregnancy feels exactly the same as with DD.

Either way I would be happy, I just want to know. I am a planner by nature.


But I will be honest if we have a BOY I think I will be alittle nervous b/c what the heck will I do with a BOY?, I am so used to GIRL. Plus I told DH that if we have a BOY we will have to get a bigger house b/c we will have double the toys. He did not bite.

I do not want to wish this pregnancy to go faster so I can find out, I just can not wait to know!

THANK THE LORD!!!

OBAMA will be president! I have lots of comments on this, of course. I am not a hard core politics follower but I have my opinions and know alot of about the issues, considering the issues have affected my job, life and those around me.

I believe this is what we NEED! Because the last eight years have sucked, not one thing has happen that was GOOD, and the fact that we are financially following apart just when he is about to depart proves it.

I hope all McCain supporters can put their disappointment aside and support our new president because I think we are going to see great things in the next 4-8 years. I feel much better knowing that OBAMA will be president b/c for the last 4 years I have felt nothing but hopelessness.

I stayed up late to watch both the speeches and thought McCain was so touching and I know he will be a huge supporter of the new president and OBAMA, well I cried the entire time, could have been the hormones, but I am so relieved.


BTW I waited in line for 2 hours to VOTE yesterday and was so glad when OBAMA won PA!
Plus I know lots of republican that voted for OBAMA, now that has to tell you something.

Thank you to ANDREA from Bella and her Fella for nominating me for the I LOVE YOUR BLOG Award. I nominate her right back because I love her BLOG too!

I am 10 weeks!

Time flies when you are having fun huh. Well maybe not, I can not believe I am 10 weeks already, I have my NT scan in two weeks and so excited, I know it will be too early to guess the gender since mine I will be only 12 weeks 2 days while alot of the other ladies had theirs at 13 or 14 weeks. I am so excited to know what this little one is so I can start planning, but if this pregnancy goes by slowly I am OK wiht that too, I want to enjoy as long al possible. I have been feeling alot better lately, just tired.

Sorry to my readers

I have not posted as often as I used to... I used to hate it when people would get their BFP and then stop posting a lot. It sucked. Well now I feel that is what is happening to me. I try to post everyday, but every time I log into BLOGGER my computer freezes I have to turn it off and back on, then I get frustrated and dcide not to post anything. Sorry! Anyone else have these problems or is it just my computer?

Halloween was nice I have to post pics as soon as I download them, I am bad at that too, I have pics on my camera form Summer still.