camryn tam has arrived

Camryn is so adorable we are in love
She weighbed 8lbs 5oz born @ 303 pm
More to come!
Thanks for all your support!

she is on her way!

Water broke @ 415 in labor and delivery now! Will update later!

I have been tagged

I've been tagged, and so have you! I was tagged by Melissa as SO IT GOES

8 Things I Am Looking Forward To:
1. Baby coming soon, we hope
2. maternity leave with baby
3. going to the beach over July 4th
4. Avery starting her princess dance class this summer
5. having the baby here - did I say that already
6. seeing my Dh hold his newborn daughter
7. seeing Avery's face when she sees her sister for the first time.
8. having the baby here - again very excited

8 Things I Did Yesterday:
1. straighten the house
2. worked on ebay stuff
3. looked into using a new hosting site for listing ebay stuff
4. slept - well not really rested
5. cried
6. played with DD outside for alittle - as much as my body could take
7. yelled at the dog several times for barking too much
8. read blogs

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:
1. Have this baby already
2. be debt free - don't we all
3. shop till I drop
4. sleeping through the night
5. drink some wine - it will be a long time before that happens
6. drop all my pregnancy weight before I walk out of the hospital - yeah right
7. get motivated to learn a new program for ebaying.
8. Have this baby - again very important

8 Shows I Watch:
1. grey's anatomy
2. ghost hunters
3. jon & kate + 8 (they live 5 minutes from me - how can I not watch)
4. deliver me (even though it is starting to frustrate me)
5. dancing with the stars
6. friends re runs
7. Reggis and Kelly
8. the news (all the time)

8 Favorite Fruits:
1. watermelon
2. strawberries
3. mango's
4. blueberries
5. pineapple
6. raspberries
7. oranges
8. bananas

8 Places I'd Like to Travel:
1. Disney - want to takes DD there so badly.
2. California
3. key west
4. NY, NY and stay for more then one day
5. go on a cruise somewhere
6. Jamaica
7. Italy
8. new Orleans

8 Places I've Lived:
1. Just here in PA

8 People I've tagged:
1. andrea
2. tarah
3. lanie
4. christy

1 day and ready to cry!

I am not sleeping well, I get maybe 1-2 hours then I am up to pee or in pain. My pain is not from contractions, but every time I get crampy I think "is this it" Nope it goes away as fast as it comes, but the pain I have is from my pubic bone area, it hurts 100% of the time. Dh says I should call them and let them know, now I know second time Moms tend to get this pain, but it is so bad sometimes, last night to check email I had to sit on the chair backwards, just to take some pressure off and to be honest the only position that takes the pain away is being on all fours, but I can not be in that position all day long.

I do not think they will do anything for me, I am not having contractions. Just crampiness and achiness. I thought about calling and having them move my induction up to Monday, b/c my induction is not until 6/5 and it seems so far away to be having this pain and pressure for the next week. But will they move me, probably not.

I am also getting bitter about watching discovery health and TLC and seeing everyone have their babies, now I just cry that here I sit waiting. I also feel guilty b/c I could have probably worked last week and saved some vacation time for after the baby arrives, but nothing I can do about that now. We all thought I would be early.

Sorry to complain, I actually am surprised by the fact that I am complaining b/c I love being pregnant, but the thought of this pain going on for another week makes me so frustrated.

That gets to the next thing.. YES I do think I am no where close to having her... every one says that they have contracions for at least two days before the real thing happened, since I have had nothing in the last 24 hours I do not see myself having her anytime this weekend. It makes me want to cry.

I had no contractions leading up to Avery's birth and once again I have nothing. With Avery she was born on her due date, so this was the day iI was induced with her. It sucks to wait but I guess I waited much longer to get pregnant I can wait a few more days.

I am torn if I want to call the DR and tell them about the pressure b/c I feel like they are going to tell me to deal with it it will be fine.

Any advice for me?

2 days and counting!!!!

Last night around 8:30pm I started having what I "think " was contractions, I was having pain low in the front and slightly in my back and alot of pressure. They kept going until 2:30am, but as time went on they started getting further and further apart....

When they started they were 5-10 mintues apart - no pattern to them then they started to go 15 mintues apart, by 4:30am they were totally gone, I had a few here and there this AM but now I feel nothing. This is soooo frustrating, I just kept telling them last night to keep going and find their pattern. It did not work.

I also felt like I had to go the bathroom the entire time, but nothing came... is that a good or bad sign?

I plan on cleaning the house today, maybe that will bring them back

So frustrated!!!!!

3 days and counting... and we have a plan

So here I am still pregnant, I should not complain, b/c even though I am having alot of pressure I am not uncomfortable yet, sleeping is not much fun unless I am on the couch all propped up.

At yesterdays appt we made a game plan, now when you read this do not think I am crazy.

They told me since I have been doing great (much better then last pregnancy) that they would like to let me go on my own b/c I have the ability to have a great labor... they will probably eat their words.

They gave me a choice, to be induced on Monday 6/1 at 10pm, or Friday 6/5 at 7am. Well there are some issues on why we picked the date we did. If we got induced on Monday 6/1 my sister would have to take off work on Tuesday and Dh would have to take a whole bunch of vacation days and my favorite DR will not be there.

We ended up picking Friday 6/5 for induction, why b/c my sister will not have to rearrange her schedule too much, my Dh will only have to take one vacation day and my favorite DR (DR P - Christy you know who I mean ) is on call all that weekend, fri-sun. So we went with that.

I left the office in complete shocked I did not pick Monday b/c that would have been a quicker wait, If I do not go until 6/5 I Will have to take extra maternity leave then I planned but that is OK, I really want my Fav Dr to deliver me b/c we would come full circle, she is the one that saved my fertility with I was 16. She is the reason I can still have kids. (she is on call tomorrow and Friday this week too - so baby feel free to come then also- I tried to convince them I needed to be induced today or Thursday they did not bite)

So if I do not go on my own by Monday 6/1, I will go in for a NST/CST with nipple stimulation (yes my DH thought that was so funny and asked how he can get a job like that - that would be his dream job and he said he was highly qualified - silly man) If that is OK we are set for the 6/5 if things do not look good then we will induce that night.

So at this point it is really up to the baby on what she plans on doing... I want her here so badly, but think I might savor my last few moments pregnant b/c this will probably be my last.

At the moment I am feeling nothing, no contractions or anything, I was sill 1cm in the front of my cervix but she said in the back I am more like 3cm, b/c of the baby putting pressure on my cervix from the back. If my front would just start to dilated more I might be on my way.

We are going to do more walking today, I plan on starting to drink raspberry leaf tea and eating a ton of pineapple. If nothing happens we wait.

I am still here....

Waiting and waiting, we did some yard saling this morning and alot of walking and nothing is happening.

What happened to the comment from the OB, at 34 weeks that she could potentially be early.

At this point I think I will be late. :(

changed my mind

Here I am on maternity leave and while I was some what excited to stay home with DD alone for a while before the baby arrives now I am thinking I want her to come. We went to the Farmers Market yesterday to walk up and down the hills, my body had no reaction to it. Today I woke up this morning thinking maybe I DO want her to come now then I get more time home with both of them. Plus the unknown is killing me. Two things have been weighing on my mind that are driving me crazy.

1. I really want DD to meet her sister first before anyone else. My sister is taking DD so as soon as I have the baby, but sn calling my sister first to bring her over, but she can not come in with her and she knows this and then call everyone else after we call her but everyone hasd wait to see the baby until Avery does, I need family time, last time it was too overwhelming and I felt rushed, i want this time to be calm, hoping everyone is repectful to my wishes.

2. When I was at the DR on Monday we did talk induction, just for the purpose of the baby not getting too big, which I believe she is not but I do not want to deliver a 8+ pound baby b/c of being late. They told me they would induce when I was ready, my expected due date is May 30th, which is a Saturday. They will not induce me that weekend they do not do planned induction on weekends, but maybe on May 29th or June 1st, which plays into the first issue above.

I really wanted her to come on her own, b/c I had been induced with Avery and it was NOT a good experience. I am hoping for a fast labor, but at this point I feel like she is not coming anything soon. I have NOT had any contractions in the last two days.

So while it would be so easy to schedule the induction and be able schedule babysitting for my daughter and my Dh's schedule at work, but I really wanted this to happen naturally. I am waiting it out of course till Tuesday at my appointment to talk with them. If I have made no progress I might ask them to schedule something. If I did progress, I maybe do some home remedies to get things going, i was thinking of even going for acupuncture. Full circle with my acupuncturist, she helped me get my BFP and maybe even help get the baby to move out.

I am so confused and anxious, I rather be induced then late, but I do not want the induction to led me to a c-section b/c I need to be home with my DD. I have never left her over night so this is a huge issue for me.

Sorry to complain and act like a total worry wart, but when you are home you think alot.

offically doing the waiting game...

I had my OB appt yesterday, no changes, now this is getting old... I wanted alittle progress, 2 cm would have been nice. Now I am afraid I will be late and have to be induced, when will my body kick it up a notch, I mean a few weeks ago it was doing as it was NOT suppost to with all the contractions, they have seemed to stop.

Today was also my official last day at work, I was planning on working till the end, but my blood pressure is extremely low for me and I am having dizziness on and off, they suggested I limit my driving, well all I do for my job is drive from school to school so having to drive 45 minutes for my furthest school made them nervous, I thought maybe I should have a week to myself before she arrives, so here I am officially on maternity leave and for some reason i feel guilty. I guess I need to be doing something all all times.

Baby stuff is ready, we are ready, I am sad to soon not be pregnant but so excited to meet her.

14 days and counting...

I would guess within the next two weeks we will be having a baby... I never thought throughout this pregnancy I would be late, but now I am thinking I will be on time or a little late. I have had NO contractions the last two days, well one or two but not like before. Avery told me this morning that the baby is coming out tomorrow, she was referencing to how big I am and how the baby is running out of room. I hope she is not right, we only have the living room to do, which will be today and DH is putting the car seats in the cars today, he already took the cars for washing. I wondered what happened to my husband.

We yard saled this morning and I got so much Gymboree stuff (I heart gymboree) for the baby I can not even stand it. And it was 3 for a $1.00. Even better deal.

Will post pictures soon, of everything, baby's room, belly pics I have not posted and other stuff... I am so behind on my pictures.

It is very muggy here b/c it is suppost to rain this afternoon, so it is hard for me to motivate myself to straighten the house and organize, hopefully it cools off soon. So glad I will not be pregnant during the HOT months, I would be so uncomfortable.

Update on me...

I have 14 days to go... and fatigue has hit full force. I am not having many contractions and have been dizzy the last two days which the DR says I am not drinking enough (yes I am ) and not eating enough protein (which I am not) so I am upping my protein intake. Meat has been something I have been not liking lately, so I have not gotten as much as I should.

The baby gave me a few sacres this week with non movement - then all of the blue she will start moving,she must be very cramped in there b/c it is starting to hurt.

I still have t get the living room and kitchen done, hopfully tonight and I will feel better about her coming at any time, plus I would love to just sleep for the next two weeks, if she stays in that long.

I am so excited to meet her, but love being pregnant so her coming it kinda bittersweet.

No changes..

Had OB appt today, I am still 1 cm, 60% effaced... no changes. I prayed this morning for no changes b/c I have some stuff to do yet, plus I am sad about NOT being pregnant anymore soon, then when she told me no changes I felt disappointed.

Making a list..

To keep myself accountable I am making a list of all the things I HAVE to do this weekend, you all can keep me on track.

1. Finish setting up baby's room (DONE)
2. put together all baby equipment (DONE)
3. rearrange living room for baby stuff
4. make room in kitchen for baby stuff
5. put baby stuff in bathroom (DONE)
6. pack baby bag for hospital (DONE)
7. pack my bag for hospital (DONE)
8. install car seat bases in both cars (Dh's job)
9. buy Avery her BIG sister gift from her little sister (Avery already picked out her gift for the baby) (DONE - ORDERED coming Wed.)
10. Pack a bag for Avery for when I am in the hospital.


There are still some odds and ends, but this is stuff I definitely need to get done before she arrives.

must do...

I HAVE to get the last baby stuff done this weekend... I realized I am dragging my feet... I have her room set up with everything but one thing on her walls... but there is still everything just thrown in the room, I have not gotten the living room and kitchen prepared for the baby. This weekend we HAVE to get these things done, and as for packing my bag for the hospital, well that has to get done too.

So this weekend is it, Friday night and Saturday we have a lot of things to tie up and get done.

I ahve had no contrax like this past weekend, they seems to slow alot... so I am feeling better that I have some time yet.

I am so excited to meet her but still a little sad she will not be all mine anymore. Oh and having a little anxiety she will be a boy, b/c we have PINK everywhere!!!

OB appt today...

Went well and even though I did not do half what I wanted to this weekend, I felt good going to my appt not nervous... I am still 1cm but now am 50-60% effaced, she was leaning towards 60%, so I am on my way... The only problem was I DO have group strep B, had it with DD have it again - yuck.

I am hoping to use all my energy this week to finish her room, set you the living room and kitchen with baby stuff and get all the last minute things done...

This weekend we finished out shopping at BRU, I took DH with me... he volunteered (why I think he did is for another post) which he never does. Once we got to the check out and our bill was $365.00 (paid more then half with gift cards) he looked at me and said, if this is how it is going to be every time no more babies, so do not get any ideas.

So it looks like he will have to get snipped if that is how he wants it.

I am getting sad this pregnancy is almost over, this will probably be it, b/c the chances of us getting pregnant on our own are slim less then 3% and who knows how my FSH has changed, and I am not sure if I would ever do treatment again, and Dh probably would not agree with it, it was draining on me and somewhat on him. SO I AM living it up, and trying to enjoy my last few moments that I have her all to myself, b/c I hated handing Avery over to my family, I wanted to have her to myself.

So hopefully I get a lot done and I can have a relaxing last few weeks (if I make it) or not you know how things always come up.

HOLY COW!!! I am going to be a Mommy of Two!