I FINALLY DID IT!!!

I wrote and sent my letter to the RE Here it is, tell me what you think.

Dear: The Women’s Clinic Infertility Staff,

I would like to Thank You so much for helping us expand our family. We welcomed our second daughter on May 30th, 2009 and we named her Camryn. She was born not only on my due date but also on my Mom’s Birthday. She has brought so many blessings to our family in so many ways. Her big sister Avery just adores her. None of this would have been possible without your amazing staff. I always felt positive energy every time I was in your office and received nothing but support and encouragement from the staff especially from Deb and Robin.

Suffering from Secondary Infertility has been both my biggest failure and my biggest reward. During treatment I always got encouragement from your staff but also from other ladies online who were going through the same thing or had been though treatment and had successes. They were my saving grace during the process. Many people in my “real life” seemed to want to be supportive, but they did not always quite understand how treatment took both a physical and emotional toll on you. While I know my family and friends meant well I did not get the same support as I got from people who were also living it or had been through it. Some days I felt completely alone in the process.

I would have loved to speak to someone face to face that was also was either going through treatment or had gone through treatment to help me realize that what was happening was normal and get some support from them. I thought about attending some of the support groups the Hospital offered, but felt that I might not be welcomed with open arms from the ladies who were going through primary infertility because I did have a child already.

After getting pregnant I have met a few ladies who are going through treatment at your office and have supported them through their journey. Also a good friend of mine leaned on me for support while having problems getting pregnant and seeked help from your office. This all made me want to pay it forward somehow. I would love to work with your office at some capacity. If your office has a past patient referral list that new patients could talk to past patients to get some insight on what to expect and some support, I would love to be on it. I would love to help out at any informational sessions your office may put on. I am also willing to run a Secondary Infertility Support Group; I do have experience in leading support groups in my current job.
I look forward to hearing from you on how I can contribute and support others going through the process of expanding their families, because I understand what a lonely road it can be. I would like to Thank You again for the amazing gift of our little girl and I look forward to hearing from you soon

Poor Avery

Prior to finding out we needed fertility treatment we planned on taking Avery to Disney for her third Birthday (which was last Dec) anyways when we started paying for medications and appointments all the money i wanted to use for the Disney Trip went towards building our family. Which we were OK with. Thank goodness we never told Avery about the trip. We figured someday we will go. This past weekend Avery asked once again when can she go to Cinderella house. We explained to her that Cinderella lives in Disney World and we have to take a plane there and it is very expensive so we have to save some money... Well since then she took all her coins that we give her when she goes YARD SALING with us on weekends, and she tells anyone who will listen she is saving she coins for her trip to Cinderella's house, that she will soon have enough to go is Disney World. Poor Avery she is going to have a long wait for that. Unless someone wants to send us there for FREE! I do not see that happening.

QUESTION

If I follow someone's blog will I get updates via email everytime they post something new??? Or is that something else.

Please pray for this family...

www.threecheersforbabies.blogspot.com

and hug your little ones a little tighter tonight.

embrassing moment

I took my daily trip to the post office today... I went without my nursing pads in. I thought I will not need them if I keep on top of feedings. While standing in line I noticed the "lady" behind the desk looking at me funny. Normally there is a guy working but he is on vacation this week, yes I am good friends with all the people at the post office b/c I am there almost daily. The lady who was working knows me but she is a sub. I realized that she was looking at me funny b/c I was leaking! I would not have even known but as I am standing there wondering what she was looking at I felt my one breast start to tingle, looked down and was like OH NO!

Never leaving the house without nursing pads again.

that was pointless

I have been trying to eat healthy, well as healthy as possible.

I was so proud of myself when for dinner I had cocktail shrimp with tomatoes and cucumber salad in light greek dressing. All was very YUMMY.

Then I ruined it by having a hot dog. And BTW I do not even like hot dogs, but I had a craving. Plus I was still hungry...

No will power for me.

parents magazine

There is a article in the Sept Parents magazine about Secondary Infertility, just a FYI.

maybe just maybe

we might get another baby...

As you know my DH says we are not having any more children, which on one hand I am OK with on the other I am sad. I guess I just want the option even if we do have 3-5% of conceiving on our own.

Avery was telling DH the other night that when mommy has another baby... DH replied to her "only if we win the lottery" I turned to him and said "I thought we were done?" He said if we win the lottery we could pay down all our bills and be debt free and afford another child...

So I am thinking of really buckeling down and wiping out our credit card, loan and school debts and after I am done with that presenting it to him as "we are debt free - now more children"

I was planning on paying down debt to begin with but maybe this will give me some motivation to actually do it.

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Still thinking of doing to parenting blog...

But am not sure what I want my focus to be... I know there are blog out there that do product reviews and I have alot of products I like to share... bu8t I also want it to be inspirational and give lots of tips and such. Just do not know how to start that it is not totally mish mashy, KWIM????

So excited

My Mom are doing something this weekend I have been wanting to do for months, cooking 12 meals in one day and freezing them for a later date. I am not a huge cooker, I must be in the mood for cooking, I rather eat out. But knowing that the days I do not feel like cooking or DH does not feel like cooking I can pull a great meal out of the freezer. Plus doing all the cooking in one day sounds great plus doing all the cooking in one day sounds great to me!

If all goes well we will be doing this one a month!

My 5 year anni

Our 5 year Anniversary is coming up, I really want a ring from DH, should I hint at it or just come out and tell him...

I either want an anniversary band or a mothers ring.

Kreative Blogger Award

I was given the Kreative Blogger award from my good friend, ANDREA! Who by the way is expecting twins!!!! And my Dear Tarah who I pray for everyday to get her little miracle... check out her blog she makes lotions that look like you can eat them.

Andrea & Tarah already named a few people who I would have nominated, so I will add, Christy (challenge the future) , Melissa (so it goes), photogirl (not the path I choose) and Tracy (sell a bit mum). Sorry Ladies I do not know how to make your blogs clicky, can someone show that ot me sometime??? But all these blogs can be found to your right.

nominate 7 people + add 7 things you love.

Here are 7 things I love:

1. my daughters Avery and Camryn

2. My DH

3. My little puppy, who is already 10 (cry)

4. Shopping, any day of the week, especially for the girls.

5. artichokes (yummy)

6. seafood (double yummy)

7. vera bradley (yes I am one of those people)

my Love / Hate relationship...

With breastfeeding...

I love breastfeeding and I hate it all at the same time, but like I said before I may never get this expereince again, I want to go as long as possible.

LOVE
1. I love my cuddle time with Camryn
2. It forces me to put down what I am doing and relax with my baby. (relaxing is not my specialty)
3. Saving us $$$$
4. Night time feedings are the best, just bring her into bed with us, latch her on and do back to sleep, i am not a sound sleeper so this works for us. I feel like I am sleeping better b/c of it, except waking up to check her breathing every two hours.
5. I am the only one who can provide this for her.
6. My Boobs look GREAT!
7. I have an excuse to eat
8. I feel good knowing that i am giving her the very best

HATE
1. I can not lose weight
2. I can eat whatever I want which is dangerous. The French Pastry shop is way to close to out house.
3. planning my day around how I will feed her and finding a place where to feed her.
4. my supply sucks and sometimes we supplement with bottles.
5. I know this will not last forever which makes me sad.
6. Leaking boobs, especially when I get out of the shower
7. wish she would go longer then every 2 1/2 to 3 hours between feedings, when Avery was formula fed she would go at least 4 hours. Which is nice when you are trying to get things done. Plus you never know how long she will feed for, sometimes 15 minutes sometimes 1 hour.
8. I CAN NOT LOSE WEIGHT!!!

getting avery to clean up

is like pulling teeth... she just does not want to do it.

She threw a fit at my mom's house after my sister's baby shower and cried and cried, I think she was alos very tired and having a million people telling her what to do just does her in. Plus everyone makes comments on how she is just throwing a fit b/c of the baby, MMM... no she is three years old.

I plan on making it a game for now on, thinking of sticking a wash basket in the middle of the room and have her pout everything in there every night to be put away... Maybe this will work maybe not.

Weight loss

I did not breastfeed Avery because I couldn't. But I am loving to breastfeed Camryn, i did not think I would make it this far (GO ME!) and am so proud of myself. Every time i get frustrated I tell myself I will never have this experience again I should keep going or I will regret it.

But in the weight loss arena I suck. I am hungry all the time and who ever told you BFing causes you to lose weight also sucks. Sorry to be vulgar. But I am frustrated. I need to shed these extra pounds, I feel like a huge smushy mess.

I really want to lose weight ASAP b/c I have tow things coming up that will require pictures, we are getting Camryn Baptised and I remember looking at myself in pictures when Avery was baptised at 4 months and I look horrible. Two we are one of the lucky ones who are getting our Pictures taken my Rachel (maydaygirl) in Sept. I want to look at least not so FAT.

Any advice for me. I really do not want my supply to tank but I really need to shed something. Because right now I am hating what I look like.