Another day...

I woke up this morning not feeling any better, I am hoping as the day goes on I will feel better, I keep telling myself that This cycle failed move onto the next, but that is so hard, I think it is hard b/c the nurse told me it was a perfect cycle, so what went wrong? And will the next cycle be a failure too.

I am also having a problem with my Mom, she has always been my best friend and there for me but lately I feel like she does not get what I am going through and is judging my feelings. I told her I feel like a failure. She thinks I should just suck it up move on, be glad for Avery (which I am) and if it does not happen oh well, life goes on. While all this maybe true it is hard. I am surrounded by pregnant girls all day at my job and in my family. How can I not think about how much my body has failed me. Then I think about all the ladies who have been trying longer then me or with IVF and get sad for them too. It is not fair. I am at the point where I used to talk to my Mom all the time about this, b/c DH is laid back and thinks it will happen if it is meant to happen while she was my rock to lean on, I feel I can not lean anymore.

She is also the one who gives me my shots, since DH would pass out if he had to (no help there), I am thinking maybe I brought her too much into this situation and her giving me my shots has made her a part of this process and maybe I should stop doing that. I am thinking I have to figure out how to give myself the shots, which I think I could but they are in my butt, so that maybe a challenge. I do have a friend who would do it ( she is a MA), but she lives 30 mintues away, but if I can not do it myself maybe I will use her as a back up. Do you think I could do this myself, does anyone else give their shots in their butt themselves?

On a lighter note, I am taking DD to get her pictures taken at a new studio in our area. She has not had her pictured taken since Christmas and I try to do it again in the summer time. I am hoping she will allow me to curl her hair.