I had my first follie check this morning, I am only on cd7 so it is very early, but she wanted to get me in before the holiday weekend and check that cyst. Well the cyst got smaller, and they said may get smaller yet. Thank goodness - I really thought this cycle would be cancelled. I also had 3 follies, they were small but there and she expressed there maybe more my Tuesday, (THUMP) I almost feel over. I would like 4 but nothing more. My family insists I will have twins, me not so much. I know they will scale my meds back if I get too many follies. I hate that people think fertility meds = twins. Maybe I will do a list of my pet peeves eventually. I have a few - HA!
I am feeling better this morning, maybe b/c it was the good news I received in the last two days. I still do not know what I will say to my sister when I see her, but we will get through it. I do not think people realize how much this all hurts. It actually stings alot. The nurse told me she felt good things for me, everyone has been saying that. I feel like they say it just to make me feel better, but I do appericate it. I just do not want to get my hopes up, guess I have turned very guarded through this and as time progressives. I hate the ups and downs of things, I wish I was more positive, maybe I will get there. I think I am really positive after I leave the DR office, then it all falls apart within a hour. Maybe they will allow me to move into the Dr office?
I am also thinking of stopping acupuncture. It does relax me and seems to have kept my headaches at bay, but it is getting way too expensive, especially since I just paid 700.00 for meds this cycle. I think I rather go get a massage twice a month and I would still pay less. I will decide by Tuesday what my plan is. I feel badly b/c she has helped me, but it is just getting too pricy. If I get BFN this cycle and did not do the acupuncture I will feel badly, they say after 3-6 months if it does not work for you (meaning BFP) then it probably will not, I am on month 6 now with her. I am so confused.
How does everyone else stay positiive?
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Hey girl! Its hard to stay positive, its my biggest struggle. I have made it my daily goal to find some kind of inspiration or something to renew my faith. Whether its a story, a song, a prayer or someone's kind words, it has been these small things that have helped me through.
I am glad the cyst is smaller and hope your follies get bigger!
Yay, I so glad we have lots of follies and a smaller cyst! As for staying positive. I'm probably not the best one to give advice on that, but some days are better than other. If I'm really down, I try to exercise or take my dog for a nice long walk. I seem to feel better and more positive after those things. Other than that, I guess talking to DH or family/friends helps me. Sometimes their optimism annoys me because I feel like they don't understand how bad IF is, but at the same time, sometimes it helps me.
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