of HOPEFULNESS! Today was one of them, I feel that someday I will be pregnant and it will happen, but my impatientness (is that a word?) with this process makes me worried that it will not happen at all...
When I am out of my house doing things and busy, I do not think that much about it, it may creep in when I am driving or seeing those pregnant bellies and newborn babies but for the most part when I am out and about I am hopeful.
It all changes when I am home. When I am home I am in a constant state of anxiety. Start to feel depressed this may never happen for us again and worry over everthing. When this happens I start GOOGLEING and reading message boards which sucks me right in and adds to my depression. Those boards are great resources for support (I totally feel that way) but sometimes when I read about so many people struggling with #1 or even #2 I get depressed and my own HOPE goes right out the door. I think I may need to stay away from message boards for a while. I will check in but not spend hours reading posts and I also need to stay away from GOGGLE, that is the death of me.
I pray everyday, GOD will bring us another bundle of JOY, hoping it is sooner rather then later.
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I agree, sometimes the boards are too much for me. Seeing all the good news or the bad news on the boards can just be overwhelming for me sometimes.
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