Today was actually good...

We had one busy day, this AM I felt alittle depressed so off we went yard saling, but did not find much.

Then we had a 1st birthday party for my BFF's son, who by the way is the cutest. She had a miscarriage for her first baby and she was due two days apart from her SIL, her SIL went on to have a baby girl while my BFF lost her baby and almost her tube, but she didn't, it was a hard 12 months for her before she got pregnant again. I was so happy for her. Now her son is 1 and her SIL is expecting #2. I thought all day I was dreading going to the party b/c I would have to look at this big belly (she is due soon) and be envious. I can not say jealous, b/c I do not want to be her, I am just wishing I was having #2 and got pregnant as soon as I said "let's get pregnant!", it was actually not bad, I was not as upset as I thought I would be. Guess I was just enjoying the day with BFF and her son. She just built a house and it is amazing, that I was jealous of.

Then after that we had another picnic, no pregnant bellies there. But I keep thinking, maybe nexy year at the time we will have a baby with us. Hoping and praying.

Now we are home I am soooo tired and ready to call it a day. Hoping the next few days my spirits are just as high... maybe I turned a corner.

BTW I was alittle freaked this AM, I am on CD9 and my cervix was high and open, guess I should start OPKS b/c my 1st u/s is not till Wednesday. I have not Oed early my entire life!