As IFers our Journey is different from most people. I feel during this process a lot has been taken away from me.
1. I can not have spontenous sex with my DH, it is all planned.
2. Everyone knows my cycle, there will never be a surprise "I am pregnant announcement"
3. I plan my life around DR appts
4. I plan my budget around payng for medications
5. I can not be happy for others who annouce their pregnancy (usually this is for non IFers)
6. I am starting to HATE my job, a job in which I thought I would retire at.
7. I look at my daughter with pity, that she will never be able to have a sibling relationship. (even if she does end up hating her sibling).
8. I have cancelled things in my life just to get by whether it be for emotional reasons or just because I have to be at the DR at a certain time.
9. Nothing in my life makes sense anymore, I used to have everything laid out.
10. Watching others struggle and lose babies makes me even more scared to continue with this journey.
Sorry to be so whinny lately, I hate myself for being such a complainer.
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I know, there are so many sacrifices and hardships that come with infertility. It isn't fair, and it really sucks, and sometimes you just need to say (or type) that out loud.
Um, have you seen my blog? You are NOT a complainer! We all need a place to vent. If not, we'd go crazy, so please vent away!
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