CONFESSION...

AF has still not arrived, but my temps dropped again, not below the cover but low enough to say this cycle is offically over. I wish AF would get here so I can move on with my life...

ON TO THE CONFESSION...

When we started TTCing DD was not 2 yet. Now she is 2 1/2 and still likes her pacifier, has diapers and sleeps with us. While we are TTC I thought I would let her be a baby as long as possible and start elimating those things when I got pregnant, which I thought would be by now. So here I am with a 2 1/2 year old that I a afraid of letting her grow up. Getting rid of the nuk, sleeping in her own bed (which I like her sleeping with us, not good for TTCing though) and changing diapers is OK with me, but I relaize she is getting older and all the changes in these things are going be a struggle, because she is beyond attached to her nuk, has no interest in the potty (did last sumer for about a week) and loves to snuggle with us at night (scared of her bed). I never pushed the issue because I thought I would have leverage when I got pregnant. Avery loves babies, she always asks me for a baby (now I am crying) and I always thought if I say we can give the new baby your nuks, big sister sleeps in her own bed and baby needs your diapers that we could do this and it would work out. But here I am without child in me and heart broken she maybe my last baby, and now I have to think long and hard about when I will start changing her life with things that makes her my baby. Now it would be nice to not change toddler diapers anymore, but it is bitter sweet.