My DAY...

MY day started off with a date with the vajayjay cam. Since I only have one ovary there was only one place to look for follies, it took me a few times for this to sink for the tech - she kept looking for my left ovary even after I told her. I have two follies, one 12mm and one 16 mm, being that it CD 12 they felt it they should be larger. So they think I will not O on time, but at my normal range, at CD 16, I usually O on CD 18 without meds. So at this point I felt that Clomid did not do the job of making me O on time. Anyways, I have to go back for another u/s tomorrow, to see if they grew at all. After this happened all my HOPE went out the window. I could feel the tears welling up as I thought about it. Also I am triggering on Saturday. Which scares the crap out fo me. My sister has to give it to me, b/c DH would never be able to handle it and my Mom is going away. So she is my only option, so now she knows about our IF. If she chickens out I will have to call my friend who is a nurse and drive 30 mintues to have her give it to me. Praying my follies grow a little more so they do not release on the small side. Maybe that is my problem.

I also had acupuncture today and she and I got talking about my frustrations with TTC and she told me to put it our to the universe that we will be pregnant this cycle. Boy am I praying for that!