Good Day Bad Day

Well, I had my progesterone test done today... P4 23 (highest it has ever been) E2 190 (last cycle was 260 but I had two follies that time, only one this time and it needs to be over 100) so I was happy... Felt great and actually started to feel slightly hopeful... Then it happens, the fluttering started.

I have been told by my Acupuncturist that I have a cold uterus, along with a kidney yang deficiency. Which means LPD in western medicine. Anyways I read in Infertility Cure, that fluttering in your uterus about 1 week prior to AF is a sign AF is coming. So despite my high levels (high levels for me) I knew AF is probably going to show next Friday. When I first read this in IF CURE I thought OMG that is me. Not a good sign. I plan on bringing this up on Tuesday at my acupuncturist appt. Maybe I can get come insight on this. Anyone else experience this? I actually googled cold uterus and saw nothing on the subject of fluttering.

Take notice...

A nestie posted today a prayer for IF, I posted it to the right of the screen, I plan on reading it everyday during my prayers, and I hope you guys can do that too.

I have my Progestrone test tomorrow, hoping for high numbers. Next week at this time I will know what our next steps will be. This last week could not go any faster, AF is also due next weekend, while I am at the beach. Good for me. It will either be a crappy vacation or a happy vacation.

I got to talk with a co-worker of mine today (not in my dept.) and she listened to me conplain about IF, she knows we are going through treatment and will every once in a while ask how I am doing, which I appericate her asking, How I am doing rather then asking if there is any news yet. I told her about my frustrations and how things are going. It was nice to talk to someone without her giving me advice.

Nervous wreck today...

I am so terrified that my tube is blocked.

I ahve my RE appt next week to discuss next steps and I know we will be doing injectables and probably a HSG. I am so nervous about the HSG and it is not even scheduled yet.

If my tube is blocked, I am not sure what we will do, We have no IF coverage so IVF would probably not happen. It sucks that I have to think this way.

I go back an forth on this, I did not have a c-section with my DD and I have had no infections since having her, what else could cause it to block?

I cried twice about this today. I hate the what ifs. I just wish I knew the whole story and how to fix it and be able to fix it and be done with a baby in my arms.

1 Year of TTCing...

Today is the day we started TTCing. My sister got married last year on august 11th, the next day I got my AF and DH and I decided we would go off BCP and see what happens, I was so excited to get started and thought I would definately be pregnant by DEC, well in sept I missed my AF and thought OH MY GOD I AM PREGNANT THE VERY FIRST MONTH, well nope that cycle ended up being, 6 weeks long. After that I decided if I wanted to be pregnant by Dec I would have to reread TAKING CHARGE OF YOUR FERTILITY and start charting again. Which I did I thought it would definately work out well this time. IN febuary I got another cyst on my only ovary and DR said she wantd to start treatment b/c I did not have much time (thanks alot) and we started Clomid in March, now here we are August and nothing. I hate IF and what it has done to my life, I hate having to take drugs to get pregnant, but unfortuately I have no choice, I would not O on time and my cycles would be so long. I am hoping that we will not have to do this another year b/c that would suck.

Nothing much going on...

I am however counting down to my August 21st appointment with the RE to discuss injectables. I am nervous and excited for this appointment, b/c maybe injectables are going to work for me (menaing a BFP) and we will probably schedule that HSG. Which makes me nervous beyond belief. I stress about that test b/c our future children are relying on my tube to be OPEN.

I have been trying to keep my mind off the 2WW, I am listing a ton on ebay and work is keeping me busy with packing our office for the remodel next week.

Oh and I do not think I will be peeing out my trigger this cycle either. because I am getting those two extra booster shots it wouod be pointless.

REBELLING AGAINST THE PINEAPPLE

I decided NOT to do pineapple 1-5 DPO this cycle. Why? Well first of all I have been doing it since March and no BFP yet. Plus I took a poll on The Nest on SAIF and all the ladies who responded (38 of them) said they did not eat pineapple during their BFP cycle. So there you have it, decided to save my $4.00 for something else and not eat it. I thought maybe by eating it month after month I was just being superstitious. So if I do not get my BFP this cycle I am blaming it on the pineapple.

TODAY

I have a headache. I normally get headaches all the time, but since I started acupuncture they have stopped. But now I have a huge one and am afraid to take anything for it. Since I am in my 2ww. Plus I have to clean my entire house today b/c my ILs are coming for dinner tomorrow.

My temp stayed up this AM, not much of a change either. Yesturday 97.80 today 97.72

So I either Oed, Thursday like FF says or Friday like the RE says. Either way we are covered.

To be honest I would love a BFP this cycle. It would save us so much money in the long run. But I am not holding out much hope. It may be different as the 2WW draws near, but for now I am looking forwards to next cycle and meeting with the RE on August 21st to discuss injectables b/c that is my next step. I am really scared my tube (only one) is closed or slightly closed. That is all I think about lately. Praying my tube is open.

Now all I do is wait for August 23rd.