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A nestie posted today a prayer for IF, I posted it to the right of the screen, I plan on reading it everyday during my prayers, and I hope you guys can do that too.

I have my Progestrone test tomorrow, hoping for high numbers. Next week at this time I will know what our next steps will be. This last week could not go any faster, AF is also due next weekend, while I am at the beach. Good for me. It will either be a crappy vacation or a happy vacation.

I got to talk with a co-worker of mine today (not in my dept.) and she listened to me conplain about IF, she knows we are going through treatment and will every once in a while ask how I am doing, which I appericate her asking, How I am doing rather then asking if there is any news yet. I told her about my frustrations and how things are going. It was nice to talk to someone without her giving me advice.

PLEASE LORD...

get me through this, I feel so lost right now. I am having a horrible day today and am not sure how much longer I can do this. Please help DH realize that this may not happen like last time and be supportive of anything the DR wants us to do. Please help the people around me (family and friends) understand I LOVE my daughter and want so badly to have another child to be her sibling and for me to raise and love.

I want to stop crying, over analyzing my chart and being bitter towards those who are pregnant without problems.

I long to hold a baby again in my arms and in my heart. My uterus aches for it.

Please get me through all the IF treatment and if we have to turn to more invasive treatment please help us figure out how we will afford it and how to get DH to agree to it.

All I ask is for you to allow me to experience pregnancy and a healthy baby one more time and then I will stop bothering you about it.

Please give me HOPE again, b/c I feel at the moment all hope is lost and I am not sure how to be positive about the process again.

Please help me heal if you choose this to NOT be our path b/c I am not sure how I will live my lie without another.

Please help those who have been experiencing miscarriages, deaths of babies and IF.

Please help me undrstand why you have choosen to let me experience secondary infertility.

Found this on Fertility Friend

Thank you Lord for all the blessings in my life, help me remember them as I face the challenges of Inferility. I pray I can surrender myself into your hands. Let me accept the reality of this situation and have wisdom and courage to take action where I can. Strenghten my Mind, Body and Spirit to endure the trails of Inferility. Keep me ever mindful of the needs of others and grant us peace. Amen.