We have a sac!

The embro implanted in my uterus, Hooray! Plus there was a sac with a yolk in it, it was so tiny, but the u/s tech kept saying it was there. There was no fetal pole but the u/s tech kept telling me that this is what is to be expected. Now we go back next Tuesday to see if we can see a heartbeat. Praying for a heartbeat. I feel much better knowing it is not etopic. I do however have a huge cyst, that they plan to watch and hope goes away on it's own when expected. I feel alittle more relief knowing it is where it should be. The RE nurse was so nice and told me that after next week and we see a heartbeat (she sounded so sure about it) that they would send me off to my OB/GYN and expressed that she would miss me and she felt like I have been her daughter. It was sweet. Plus my Mom went with so she got to see how busy the office is and how nice everyone is. Even the grumpy u.s tech was nicer today. So I need to keep myself busy for the next week and pray for a heartbeat. Thank you for all the well wishes.

Ultrasound tomorrow

Please pray there is a baby and it is implanted in the correct spot. Maybe tomorrow this whole thing will actually hit me this is for real. I think I have been real guarded b/c I am afraid about the what ifs. Praying for everyone else too!

5 weeks

I am 5 weeks now and it is so hard not telling family. Somehow (my MOM) my grandmother found out. My Mom thinks she over heard her on the phone with me one day when I was having a nervous break down. I am having lots of pain on my right side, from my ovary area, terrifed but thinking it is a cyst. It gets worst as the days goes on and some morning I do not even feel it until I do alot of activity. Monday is the first u/s and I am counting down the mintues,

It is hard not to be worried, not only did my sister lose a baby this week but I also found out a friend of mine did too. It makes me sad that these things happen.

Sad to say...

My sister had a miscarriage and is getting a D & C tomorrow. It is sad. She seems to be OK, she says it was not meant to be. I on the other hand had a melt down b/c I am so scared this is going to happen to me. Please Pray.

Still in a worried state...

Sorry if you all think I am crazy. I feel truly blessed to be pregnant, but that alone does not ease my fears, after what is going on with my sister I am worried for myself, which I would have been anyways.

The thing that has me worried is that my ovary is so achy, pinching pain, and I am cramping all over sometimes then just on one side, the side where my only ovary is. Etopic IS my worst fear. Because of the fact that I only have one tube to begin with. I also sometime get back pain on one side then all over.

I called the RE (yes they will be glad when I graduate to the OB)
She said it is normal to cramp and for my ovary to be achy but if it is sever call them. She said because my ovary was stimulated by the follistim it has residual effects, it made me feel better until the next pain started. Also how do I know if it is severe. Monday could not come fast enough. We have a very busy weekend so hopefully that will keep my mind busy.

It will also be hard this weekend not to spill the beans,we have two family get togethers, my cousins birthday party and going away with my ILs. Last time we told everyone at 5 weeks then I had spotting at 7weeks and regretted it telling, even though it turned out fine. This time I want to wait until I see a heart beat, which I hope is sooner rather then later.

I was so tired today and of course DH did not help my nap, he kept trying to talk to me. I then got up later to make dinner (doing now) and I had slight chills, it is cold in my house. I feel achy and just run down, I do not remember any of this last time. I do remember feeling exhausted but the ovary achiness I do not remember.

Praying this turns out well.

Please Pray...

My Sister went for a u/s yesturday and they could not find the baby. She said the u/s tech kept asking her if she was sure she was pregnant, they told her to go get b/w and they would call her today. She is upset, which is understandable, but felt like crap that she was treated badly from the u/s tech. This would have been their first u/s at 10 weeks. Worried for her. My sister and I do have a weird relationship she drives me nuts, but I wish no ill will for her. I hope everything turns out OK and the u.s tech was just a complete idiot.

My FIL is very ill, he has cancer and needs a bone marrow transplant, we known for a while this is the third time he has gone through this, but his immune system is very very low and he is stuck in the house and is not allowed to be around Avery, which breaks his heart.

Me: I am completely full of anxiety, I am having pains on my right side which is where my only ovary is, I was told by some girls on the nest after being on injectables your ovary can be sore and achy for a while b/c of the follicles shrinking. I just pray it is not etopic, that is my worst fear b/c I only have one tube. I am just owrried b/c it is only on my right side, I feel nothing on my left, but there is nothing there. Anyone else experience this early on? I am feeling fine, tired but not too tired and I waiting for it to hit me, with my DD I was so exhausted I sleep after work for 5 hours eat then went back to sleep for my entire 1st trimester, I am just waiting for this to start b/c now I have a toodler to watch too. I ate saltines for breakfast, I do not have morning sickness, just am not hungry in the AM, at least nothing seems appealing. But I got to eat.

OK off to obsess more about my aches and pains and what they could mean.


*** Disclaimer*** I will worry about everything until I see a heartbeat! Just a warning.

BETA #2 IN!!!

It was 442!!! My P4 stayed the same. I go in next Monday for a u/s, she told me not to expect to see anything, like a heart beat, but they are just checking to make sure the baby implanted itself at the right place and that it is growing. Then I would come back in 10 days for another u/s. I can not believe this is happening!!

It took the nurse until 2:15 to call me, they always call between 1-1:30pm so I got a little worried and thought it was bad news b/c it took so long. When she told me the number I let out a huge sigh of relief. I know we are not in the clear yet, but I am hoping a praying for a healthy sticky little baby and a healthy pregnany. PLease ocntinue to pray for us. I appericate it more then anything.

I do not want to get too excited over this. But I am excited!!!! We plan to tell no one until we hear a heartbeat, my Mom, sister, Dad and Aunt all know. I am not sure how I will keep this a secret from the ILs b/c we are going to Hershey Park on Sunday with them, and I can not ride anything, well maybe the carosel. It is going to be hard to hide it.