BFP

Just found out that my Aunt is pregnant, she is due in Dec. Part of me was sad it was not me and the other part was happy, good for them!

I am FAT...

Another vent of the day. I decided that I am FAT, I saw a picture of myself from EASTER and thought OMG I did not realize how BIG I am. I have a different picture in my mind. I am 5' 2" and 165 lbs, whewww got that out. I think I am going to hit the GYM more and start back on my reduced calorie diet. I hate today, I am having an OFF day. Maybe it is the Clomid kicking in.

Today I am bitter...

I am normally not bitter, just jealous. Today I was surfing my usual message boards and there was so many BFP in the last few days, I started to get mad. Why not me. We have great timing and I O every month, I want a BFP. Mostly I just want a baby. I am not normally like this like I said so maybe the Clomid is making my emotional.

I really wish I was Hopeful this cycle. I feel like if I feel too good about this cycle it will be a bigger let down b/c we actually took medication and did acupuncture, which by the way was amazing - can't wait to go back.

I look at DD and think I just want another little Avery. I am so grateful for her to be in my life.

My doggie dos.

That is what i call her, her name is PITA. So is the sweetest dog, to us. To everyone else she is a holy terror.

She hurt her leg last night and was limping all over the house. We have no clue how it happened. Well the enitre night she whinned and my DH was up with her most the night. This morning she is walking on it but whinning a little. I do not think it is broken but maybe a sprine. She used to do this all the time as a puppy. But soon after she would shake it off, but now that it is still happening in the AM we are not so sure. I should take her to the vet, but money is tight and it will cost me am arm and leg. I will wait till tomorrow and see how it is.

DD is very concerned about Pita's Booboo, she says Pita is sad.

Today is the day...

I am getting my acupuncture done. 1st appointment. I am so nervous but so excited!

Vacation

My Mom asked if I wanted to go to the beach house the weekend my sister goes away and my Mom has my nephew. Well anyways, at first I said yes, thensaid no I might not be able to. She asked why and I told her that if I Ovulate like I normally do I might not Ovulate by then and will have to stay home to get my deposit. Oh the life I lead.

It begins tonight...

I start my clomid tonight, I am nervous. But excited to get this party started! I also go for my first acupuncture treatment tomorrow, nervous about that too. Hoping #6 is our cycle, was last time. PLEASE LORD LET IT HAPPEN.