bad day...

I WAS feeling alittle hopeful this morning, but temp jumped from 98.10 to 98.18 which I thought was great and I felt good, until i went in for my progestrone test. Here is the break down...

progestrone was 11 (they wanted to see at least 10 but as high as 15)
estrodial was 68 (they wanted to see 100)

so she asked me to come into the office right away and get another trigger (booster) shot to see if my levels on both of these woud raise. I asked her if there is a chance for pregnancy this cycle, she told me that if I was pregnant my levels would not be high enough to keep the pregnancy that is why the extra boost shot would trick my ovary into thinking I was pregnant and it had to work harder. I also asked if my ovary has decided to shut down bc it is over worked she never really answered me. She concluded with she has seen low levels before that ended up in pregnancy b/c they did the extra shots, so she is hoping that we caught it early enough to save it. Now when she said that my first thought was that she says I am 8 DPO while my temps say I am 10DPO so the chances that they caught it in time are slim.

I cried all the way into the DR and all the way home. I am so frustrated with my ovary and it deciding to not produce enough hormones to help me get pregnant, I am tried of the routine every cycle, I am scared to death I will never have another child, I am scared that we will have to turn to IUI or IVF and will not be able to afford that.

The really bad thing about this is now I can not take a HPT, I have to wait for my beta, plus wiht this extra shot it will prolong my cycle at least another 4 days, IF sucks. I just wanted to throw things and cry.