Having a bad night...

I am crying and crying. I just want that BFP soon, I not sure how much longer I can do this. Damn CLOMID.

almost forgot...

This is my third round of clomid, now normally I would be thinking about it all day that I need to remember to take my clomid before bed. Taking it at night to reduce side effects. I did not ahve any side effects with the last three cycle, which I guess is good. Anyways, I am getting ready for bed and realize I never took my clomid at 8pm, it is now past 11pm. So down the hatch. WTH would have happened if I would had forgotten. WHEWWWW...

1st clomid pill tonight & MORE

I take my first pill tonight, hopfully it is my last 1st pill ever. I am really hoping this is our month. I am trying to be more positive.

I have a lot going on before our July 7th follie check so I am hoping that the next week goes by fast. We are currently getting ready for a 4th of July picnic at our house, we will have lots of food! Stop by if you like, I would love to meet some of you guys IRL.

DD told me this morning while playing with her baby alive wet n wiggles doll that her baby was her best friend. My heart sank, she would make a great BIG SISTER! Just wish it would happen soon.

Told my MOM about my FSH level and she was happy for me, then I asked her then if the Number is so good what is the problem? I have eggs why are they not implanting? She said in Gods Time, I hate when she says this b/c I know she is right. But what is God waiting for? Tell me so I can just do it.

PRAY THIS IS OUR MONTH!

Exhausted...

I am sooo tired and feel like doing nothing but I have soooo much to do.

I do not remember Clomid hitting me this hard last cycle. I am tired, My Boobs hurt (they never hurt - not even when I was pregnant), I have a headache and I am so bloated I wore maternity pants today. I know, I know but in my defense they look like normal pants just have the elastic back waist. So comfy! I do not want to jinx myself, for that is the first thing I thought of this morning when I pulled them out, am I jinxing myself?

Also my allergeries are in full force and I refused to take anything b/c it might dry up my CM, and since I have hardly any to begun with I do not want to take the chance.

It is hard to be positive (june is positive thought month) when you feel like crap.

I have to go list on ebay (need the money for acupuncture this week), feel free to purchase from me www.littleladybugscloset.com. I have a ton of maternity still for sale ladies.

Tonight is my last Clomid pill, then I will be Oing hopefully by the weekend. Hooray! (trying to be positive)