My fear

Well not really a fear, just has me a little concerned these days. When I got pregnant the first time I was a tight size 10 louse size 12. I gained a total of 42 pounds, I ate healthy but I ate alot and ate cake every chance I got. After I had her I was a size 18, got myself down to a size 14, which I am now. IF medications and stress did not help, I am still 10 pounds heavier then I was the first time I got pregnant.

I planned on watching my weight gain this time around. I know weight gain is good for the baby and I totally plan to gain. But I do not want to gain as much as last time. I may have gone a little too far on the cake last time. One thing I loved aout being pregnant is it did not matter how big I got I still loved my pregnant body it was the post baby body I hated. I want my goal to be no more then 30 pounds of weight gain, being I am already over weight for my size, I will probably be told not to gain much.


What worries me is since I feel naseous most of the day, I am eating anything that appeals to me at the time, in some cases, it has been cake, red velvet whoopie pies to be exact. which are hard to get my hands on now. BUt I ate 5 this weekend. Not good. Also I have been drinking alot of SPRITE b/c water turns my stomache, so all those empty calories can not be good. But I keep reminding myself I have to eat and if it does not appeal to me,I probably will not eat. Also I have noticed once I eat I feel better, so maybe I should eat more often, smaller portions.

So there you have it, nervous about weight gain, for after post baby, but maybe this time I will be able to breastfeed this time to lose some of that extra weight.


SCHOOL UPDATE: ONe paper done, only three to go. Lord help me. This is horrible.