Please pray for me...

Pregnancy is fine, I am having a hard time dealing emotionally right now. I can not talk about it now. Sorry I just want to enjoy these last few weeks being pregannt.

Need a title

I am horribe at coming up with creative titles for my blog. The title of this blog is Hope faith and love b/c that was our wedding theme. I added the My b/c there was already a blog titled hope faith and love.

Since the girls blog with be fro their prospective, I want something cute and catchy.

The only thing I could come up with was ADVENTURES OF A LADYBUG AND A BUTTERFLY. Not sure if I love it, maybe you guys can help me out...

Here is a few things about us... (my daughters)


two girls, pink is big in our house, Avery's theme is Pink Ladybugs and the baby's theme is Butterflies. Avery is really into girly things, she is so excited to be a big sister. Infertility plagued me for both girls, expected we dodged treatment with Avery (got very blessed) not so much with the baby.

Thoughts? I know you guys can help b/c all your blog titles are creative.

Thanks

to share or not to share

I will be making a blog for my little girls, I am excited about this!

I plan on keeping my blog for my own thoughts and feelings and would love for you all to read the girl's blog once I have it up and running.

The only thing that concerns me is my family (because I am opening my daughters blog to them) that they will somehow find this blog and realize what a crazy person I am, there are things in this blog about Infertility and my journey that they do not know about, plus I might have vented about a few family members in here and even though those were my thoughts and feeling at the time they are not now. Infertility does funny things to your emotions and this blog has been my therapy, something I like to keep up with for me.

So if I let you lovely ladies who have been my biggest support throughout this journey know about my new blog for the girls and you post a comment (which I love when that happens) do you think people I know IRL will be nosy enough to click on your blog and find my IF blog in your blog?

I know I am over thinking this. I just do not need the drama.

I am thinking of making this blog almost anonymous, but I do not want to do that either b/c this is my journey and I lived it. but I want my bloggie sisters to be able to read about my little girls and their journey too!

thoughts? Am I just crazy to be worried about this? Should I just open that blog to people we know IRL and also add things about my girls to this blog.

Not sure how I want to handle this... I want to open up the other blog soon, in the anticipation of our new arrival.

THIS IS THE WEEK!

We Hope... After I get items ready for a huge local consignment sale (unloading a ton of inventory) we will start to put the rooms together. I will feel so much better and less stressd when i have everything for the baby set up. I went to my OB appointment today nervous b/c everytime I walk in something happens and I dodge bedrest somehow. Well today everything was fine, except when they checked her heartbeat it was 178, which for her stage and size is way too high. So they wanted to give me a nonstress test, but after 5 mintues of waiting and listneing to the doppler it went down. It is surprising it was so high because she has been so quiet lately, if it was not for my own home doppler I would have made a thousand trips to the Dr for non movement by now.

I have lots of catching up on readng blogs this week, Hope everyone's easter was good, ours was as expected hectic and nice. Avery got more candy then she needed and now Mommy is eating it, not good for weight gain.

Can't wait to see what everyone is up to.

Baby stuff on hold...

because I have been trying to get my house ready for 19 people on Easter day. But the problem is, not only do i have to get everything ready but I also have other commitments too and my exhaustion has set back in. Ugggg.

One thing off the list

Million to go...

We went today to IKEA to get Avery her new Furniture and the baby a dresser, plus Dh got a new dresser, now I have to get DH to out this all together, and maybe we will be on our way to getting something accomplished.

Confession #2

I think I may want a 3rd child. Being towards the end of my pregnancy I all of a sudden have become sad this is it for us. I have always wanted three children but after going through IF and praying for just one more perfectly healthy child. I feel like if I try for #3 I would be tempting fate.

On the other hand DH does not want another one, He says two is enough... Plus I would not want to do treatment again since it had taken over my mind, body and soul If we would do a third I would want it to happen naturally which for us is just a 3% chance of doing it on our own. But my desire to have a third is still there. Guess we will see how this plays out...

I do not plan on going back on Birth Control, 1. b/c what is the point 2. because it makes me gain weight like crazy. The only reason I would have to be on it is if my ovary starts to act up. I do not want to get my tube tied or remove my last ovary because if something ever happened to DH I would want to option of having more children with someone else, if I would marry again (I know morbid to think about that). DH goes not want to get the big V, he said NO WAY, he has anxiety over DRs and hospital, he will not go unless he has to normally, can you imagine the basket case he would be if he went in for the BIG V. I would never pull an accident on him, b/c I do not want to be dishonest to him, but I was very upfront with him that no BC for me or tube tying, he too said no big v for him and for us condoms always get forgotten in the moment. Maybe that is why all those years of unprotected sex during our dating days never ended in something, I would always skip pills... b/c I was young and stupid.

So in reality if we got pregnant on our own if would be an accident. Which in our book never would happen. But if DH came to me later on and said lets do this gain, I would seriously consider treatment again. Yes I would b/c my desire to have another is pretty strong some days.

Shhh, don't tell my DH b/c he also thinks I am over this too.