Will not be posting a pic :(

My scanner makes the picture too dark. You can not see anything at all. How do people put up their u/s pictures? Any advice? Should I take a picture with my camera?

To tired to do anything...

I am really pushing myself. I know I should not be doing that, but when things need to be done I need to do them. Perparing for holiday ebay sales has been put on the back burner, until I get my midterm done. I really need to get my office ready for the holiday sales, which tend to start in Nov.


I plan on telling work on Friday I am pregnant, we have a staff meeting and everyone but my boss will be there. Plan on telling him closer to when I am 12 weeks. I know they will be happy for me b/c they are probably tired fo hearing me complain.

I looked at the u/s picture a million times today, just to remind myself, that yes this is real. Still planning on getting it up. Not much to look at now, but I am already in love.

OMG I am really pregnant!

We have a heartbeat. I am so relived.

When the u/s tech first started she went straight to my ovary to check the cyst first, which made the nerves even worst. The she showed the little itty baby, which looked like a peanut. There was a strong heartbeat from being onl 6w 4d, at 138. I also got to hear the heart beat! It was amazing, I started crying when I heard the heartbeat, b/c it became real. We met with the RE DR afterwards and he says my miscarriage risk is down to 5% and after my next u/s with the OB in 2 weeks it will be down to 2%. He said e was very pleased, was concerned about my levels pre O, but everything turned itself around. I am so grateful that I made it this far and so excited for my first OB appt. We are going to tell extended family and my Ils this week. I also am on the hunt for a BIG SISTER book to read to DD.

WOW I am really pregnant. Crazy!

Hoping to post pic of the u/s when I get home.

Thanks everyone for all the prayers and well wishes, I am so grateful to have such suportive blog readers, it is amazing. Praying for you all.

tomorrow is the big day...

U/S day! I am nervous but excited. I go from it will all work out and we will see a healthy heartbeat to OMG what am I going to do if the baby did not progress. It is all so scary becasue I love this baby already so much. Everytime I am snuggling with Avery I think I am actually snuggling with both my little ones, it is so seareal. Wish me luck and pray we see a healthy heartbeat!

The pressure is getting to me.

I am counting down the days until our next u/s, I am praying for a little heart beat. I looked up everything possible today (I should be doing my paper) about early miscarriage (I know shot me) and what a u/s should look like at 6week, how early people saw heartbeats etc. I googled everything, nothing made me feel better. I think this is what IF does to you. While going through treatment all you want is to see those two lines, everything is so unknown. Will I ever get pregnant again, will this medical treatment work for me, can we afford this? So much has gone through my mind in the last year. Once I saw those two pink lines, nothing really changed my anxiety level. The unknown is back. I know I have a little sac in there who looked as it should and everyone at the Re's office sound so optimistic that we will see a heartbeat this week. But I am worried. It is back to the unknown. I do not know what is going on in there. I pray everyday to let this baby be healthy and join our family in May. I love it so uch already I hold my stomach at night just to be able to hold me tiny baby. The waiting is killing me. I thought once I see a heart beat I would probably feel so much better, but now I think I will worry until I am 12 weeks. I wish I could stop this, it probably is not good for the baby. I am so grateful we are expecting again. Avery deserves to be a big sister and I deserve to be a mother again. But sometimes I am trying to not get my hopes up just in case.

I was trying to take a nap today and DH asked me what was wrong, I guess I look like hell I am so tired. I told him I did not feel well and was tired his response was "you know why" I thought he was going to say something sarcastic but he said "because you are pregnant" WOW I am pregnant. Who would have know with all this worrying I am doing.

So tired.

I try to blog everyday but lately I have been so tired. I have so much to do for school that sleeping is becoming a luxury. Nothing new to report. I have my u/s Tuesday and praying to see a heartbeat. Will keep everyone updated.


I have so much to do this weekend, I have to read 150 pages for school and write a four page paper, not sure how anyone does anything else if they are taking more then one class. I also decided that next semester I am taking a medical leave, not sure I can handle this being pregnant. I also want to prepare my ebay office for the upcoming Christmas sales. My office is a disaster. I plan on taking before and after pics, will post them. Hopfully I can get a lot done this weekend, I plan on not leaving the house.

24 hours of Bliss

That was all. I was excited for about 24 hours after my u/s, then I got worried again. I am praying so hard that there will be a healthy heartbeat and a healthy baby with this pregnancy. I am hoping after I see a heartbeat I can relax a little. This week seems to be dragging.

I have been doing good, just very very tired, which is not good when you have a toddler, but I am trying. I had class last night and had the worst stomach cramps and gas pain, so I felt like crap and of course I had to sit at a desk for three hours during this. So far nothing really to report. I am having sore boobs and nausea in the monring but not bad at all, I just do not want to eat breakfast. Lunch I am starving and then at dinner I am back to feeling not so hot maybe b/c I am so tired. I plan to embrace this pregnancy 100% once I know the baby is OK, I think that I do not want to get too attached until I know there is a heartbeat, too many people close to me last week lost babies, my friend and my sister. Hope everyone is doing well. Can't wait to hear updates.