Can you believe it has been 1 year? I am not sure I still believe it yet.
I laid in bed this morning watching Camryn sleep or toss n turn as she usually does and I started to cry. is it going to be like this at every Birthday she has? I cried the day Avery turned 1 and everyone was singing Happy Birthday but this was definitely different. She is not a baby anymore. But she will always be my baby.
While TTCing you always want these moments and even when she is up at the asscrack of dawn smacking you in the face you can still smile. All I could think of was all the tears, injections and scheduled sex was worth it because if it gave me her in the end I would do it all over again.
It is funny how I can have two amazing little girls who light up my world and they could not be any different. Avery is my independent one. While Camryn is my shadow, where Mommy is Camryn wants to be, right now she is crying to climb my lap as I write this.
Camryn is my meant to be baby and by the grace of GOD who I thank everyday I get to be the one to guide her in life and watch her grow and that makes me feel incredibility lucky.
As much as I would love a third child, the day I had Camryn I felt like this was how it was supposed to be. She was meant to be part of our family.
Mommy Loves you Camryn and you sister more then you will ever know....
Piu la mia vita ~ More then my own life.
I laid in bed this morning watching Camryn sleep or toss n turn as she usually does and I started to cry. is it going to be like this at every Birthday she has? I cried the day Avery turned 1 and everyone was singing Happy Birthday but this was definitely different. She is not a baby anymore. But she will always be my baby.
While TTCing you always want these moments and even when she is up at the asscrack of dawn smacking you in the face you can still smile. All I could think of was all the tears, injections and scheduled sex was worth it because if it gave me her in the end I would do it all over again.
It is funny how I can have two amazing little girls who light up my world and they could not be any different. Avery is my independent one. While Camryn is my shadow, where Mommy is Camryn wants to be, right now she is crying to climb my lap as I write this.
Camryn is my meant to be baby and by the grace of GOD who I thank everyday I get to be the one to guide her in life and watch her grow and that makes me feel incredibility lucky.
As much as I would love a third child, the day I had Camryn I felt like this was how it was supposed to be. She was meant to be part of our family.
Mommy Loves you Camryn and you sister more then you will ever know....
Piu la mia vita ~ More then my own life.
2 comments:
A year already!?!
Happy birthday, Camryn!
Will we get to see pictures from her first birthday? Sorry I missed it. :-( Boo.
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