wednesday...

Was not the best of my days, I am not sure why it happened but it did and I have to embrace it and move on..

I was at work and at a school I go to every week, needless to say b/c I am there every week and I pretty close to one of the staff I work with. Her daughter is my age and just had a baby last Dec, we bonded alot this last year b/c I was also pregnant and yes she knew my struggles.

She tells me that she plans to retire b/c her daughter who just had the baby in Dec is pregnant again and she goes on to say to me " K is pregnant total surprise not even trying to get pregnant" my heart drops then she adds " with twins!" I held back the tears, I had to go to the bathroom after talking with her and cry, not sure what came over me. I think it was the fact that I can relate to this girl in some ways and being blindsided like that was hard to handle, I can not even imagine what it would be like to get that "surprise BFP" I am currently to not using any type of BC and my chances of getting pregnant with perfect timing is 3% then being able to keep the bay is a different story, so unfair that people have this conceiving stuff so easy, it just sucks.

I am OK with it now, was totally unsure why I reacted the way I did considering the two beautiful little girls I have.