Saturday, September 5, 2009

Finding myself jealous

Of pregnant people I know IRL, a lady I work with is pregnant with her first. She was gushing at lunch about being pregnant and I all of a sudden felt this all too familiar feeling of sadness and jealousy. I am so excited for her. for they tried for a year & she is AMA, but this feeling took me by surprise.

grateful for my little girls, but so sad this is probably it, no more babies.

then I started feeling like I am a huge failure b/c I can not be home with them.

4 comments:

Angelwingsbaby said...

I think your feelings are understandable.I hope it gets better for you.((hugs))

Melis.sa said...

hmm, well when you get out of debt.... :) there's always that possibility... ((HUGS)))

Lanie said...

Jenni - you are a WONDERFUL mom. Just because you're not at home doesn't take that away.

Hopefully you can go for #3 or let it go at some point. Either way, I hope you find peace. (((hugs)))

Bella said...

You are a great mommy no matter if you are home all day with them or not!! I hope it works out that you can go for #3 if that's what you want!!