Here I am on maternity leave and while I was some what excited to stay home with DD alone for a while before the baby arrives now I am thinking I want her to come. We went to the Farmers Market yesterday to walk up and down the hills, my body had no reaction to it. Today I woke up this morning thinking maybe I DO want her to come now then I get more time home with both of them. Plus the unknown is killing me. Two things have been weighing on my mind that are driving me crazy.
1. I really want DD to meet her sister first before anyone else. My sister is taking DD so as soon as I have the baby, but sn calling my sister first to bring her over, but she can not come in with her and she knows this and then call everyone else after we call her but everyone hasd wait to see the baby until Avery does, I need family time, last time it was too overwhelming and I felt rushed, i want this time to be calm, hoping everyone is repectful to my wishes.
2. When I was at the DR on Monday we did talk induction, just for the purpose of the baby not getting too big, which I believe she is not but I do not want to deliver a 8+ pound baby b/c of being late. They told me they would induce when I was ready, my expected due date is May 30th, which is a Saturday. They will not induce me that weekend they do not do planned induction on weekends, but maybe on May 29th or June 1st, which plays into the first issue above.
I really wanted her to come on her own, b/c I had been induced with Avery and it was NOT a good experience. I am hoping for a fast labor, but at this point I feel like she is not coming anything soon. I have NOT had any contractions in the last two days.
So while it would be so easy to schedule the induction and be able schedule babysitting for my daughter and my Dh's schedule at work, but I really wanted this to happen naturally. I am waiting it out of course till Tuesday at my appointment to talk with them. If I have made no progress I might ask them to schedule something. If I did progress, I maybe do some home remedies to get things going, i was thinking of even going for acupuncture. Full circle with my acupuncturist, she helped me get my BFP and maybe even help get the baby to move out.
I am so confused and anxious, I rather be induced then late, but I do not want the induction to led me to a c-section b/c I need to be home with my DD. I have never left her over night so this is a huge issue for me.
Sorry to complain and act like a total worry wart, but when you are home you think alot.
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Hello there! I've been reading your blog for a while now after hopping upon it from other infertility blogs, I might have commented before. I've always felt like somehow "I knew you" or we lived near each other...but your comment today in your post now leads me to believe that we actually do. The hospital where you are delivering has a garden party on 6/2? So does mine! Please email me (unless you think I'm totally crazy, which I promise you I am not)! We too have gone through Secondary Infertility and I am now 10w4d pregnant with our second. It would be so fun to actually meet you IRL if it turned out we do live near each other. My email is dcodydog@comcast.net. Take care and I hope your baby girl arrives soon (and safe) for you!!!
I'm hoping that it will be a fast labor for you. My SIL was overdue with her 2nd born by like 4 days and when she scheduled the induction her baby decided to come. She woke up with contractions and had her baby girl about 4 hours later.
Hopefully it will go quickly for you!
And I totally get wanting it to be a family thing when Avery meets her little sister. Extended family can be so frustrating sometimes...
:)
I have no labor experience, so I have no advice. What I do have is (((HUGS)). You'll be in my thoughts, dear.
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