Well my Aunt had a baby boy last night, they did not know the sex (not by choice) and I really thought it was a girl. I also thought if they have a girl I will definately have a boy, now they threw me off. We went to see him and he is adorable and kinda made me wish I had mine already, but then I do not want to wish away my pregnancy at all, I want this to last forever, but with knowing what gender the baby is. I know, this is a theme with me, but I am impatient.
In another way it made me realize how lucky they are to NOT have Fertility issues to have this baby, and that made me jealous. I am going to carry this IF feeling forever it seems, b/c it comes up alot in my life.
I know my sister will be pregnant again soon, and those feeling will come back to haunt me again, in a way I want to be pregnant by myself b/c I worked so hard to get here and in a way I want people to know that and acknowledge it, b/c I went through hell. I guess I am selfish but I feel this baby is so special b/c of all the tears and heart break we went through to get pregnant.
I guess seeing new babies even though I am also pregnant, makes me feel the pain IF caused me all over again. And I wish it did not do that.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
1 comment:
I've been wondering about life after IF (wishful thinking). I think I will forever be jealous of those who can get PG the old-fashioned way without spending thousands of dollars. I hope you get to find out he gender very soon! So exciting!!
Post a Comment