HAPP HALLOWEEN

Not my most favorite holiday but Avery loves it, pictures to come!

wednesday...

Was not the best of my days, I am not sure why it happened but it did and I have to embrace it and move on..

I was at work and at a school I go to every week, needless to say b/c I am there every week and I pretty close to one of the staff I work with. Her daughter is my age and just had a baby last Dec, we bonded alot this last year b/c I was also pregnant and yes she knew my struggles.

She tells me that she plans to retire b/c her daughter who just had the baby in Dec is pregnant again and she goes on to say to me " K is pregnant total surprise not even trying to get pregnant" my heart drops then she adds " with twins!" I held back the tears, I had to go to the bathroom after talking with her and cry, not sure what came over me. I think it was the fact that I can relate to this girl in some ways and being blindsided like that was hard to handle, I can not even imagine what it would be like to get that "surprise BFP" I am currently to not using any type of BC and my chances of getting pregnant with perfect timing is 3% then being able to keep the bay is a different story, so unfair that people have this conceiving stuff so easy, it just sucks.

I am OK with it now, was totally unsure why I reacted the way I did considering the two beautiful little girls I have.

I GOT a Response!

Remember when I wrote that letter to my RE about helping out somehow? I got a letter back which is a start. The letter was from DR. M and he said they would love for me to work with them somehow and that he will be bringing it up at the next staff meeting to see where I can be utilized. I hope this is not just a bunch of fluff. I hope he really means it.

I plan on taking Camryn in there in a few months to visits and maybe they will realize I am serious.

Call me crazy!

but I got my tickets for New M.oon! My SIL and I are going for the midnight show... We also got tickets for T.wilight before hand since they are showing them back to back and seats will be limited for those who are showing up for New M.oon!

I can not wait! I keep telling myself to not wish away those few weeks before the movie b/c that means Camryn will be on month older! I want her to stay a baby forever.

SQUEEE So excited!

New Sleeping arrangements...

After I posted about Camryn sleeping so well, she turned on me and started to get up every two hours, I could not for the life of me figure out why she was doing this... but when i would bring her into bed to feed she would fall right to sleep.

I figured it was her bassinet she was not liking. I am not ready for her to be in her own room, especially when I am breast feeding her once a night so I bought her this

Now she is back to sleeping great and so is Mommy (well when I am not checking on her) the best thing is this travel crib is adorable being almost half the size of pack n play place. I wish I would have gotten this in the first place and wish I have gotten it for all our summer trips.

Oh and she is a mover when she sleeps, which is why she needed more room.

Miss Camryn

Camryn is already 4 1/2 months! I can not believe it. She is really the perfect little girl. Here is some updates

She rolls over and finally enjoys it, before she used to cry.

She is 13 pounds, much smaller then Avery was.

She grabs for things and is so proud when she gets it.

She talks non stop, I thought Avery talked alot as a baby she is 10x more, hope this not a glimpse in the future b/c Avery talks nonstop now.

Her eyes light up at the sight of Avery

She is constantly giggling

She falls alseep around 10 PM and sleep til 3:30 am eat then returns to bed until I wake her to feed before we leave the house, love that girl! Mommy likes her sleep.

She is such a little snuggler.

I am so in love and grateful

ROBSESSED

Yes I feel like a teenage girl, but I think Rob Pattin.son is so yummy, DH caught me looking at pictures and now makes fun of me.