Friday, July 31, 2009

2 month appt

Camryn had her 2 month appt today, I can not believe she is two months already! Time is flying.

She had her Dr appt today for her shots :( She was smiling and cooing the entire time we were at the DR, she was having such fun being all cute and everyone gashing all over her, but the nurse told her, you love me now just you wait you will change your mind. She cried for a little but as soon as I picked her up she stopped, mommy love.

Avery was good too, I wondered how she would react with Camryn getting the shots, she held her hand and had her nosy right there the whole time, she told her it would only hurt for a minute. It was so cute.

Now all Camryn wants to do is cuddle and we are find with that.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

doppler for sale (SOLD)

hello all pregnant ladies...

I am selling my fetal doppler, I am kinda sad about it, b/c it means no more babies for me, for real. But wanted to offer it to my readers before I list it on ebay...

fetal pocket doppler, like they have in the dr office, used all my pregnancy, since I had an anterior placenta it helped my worrying alot...I also will include the ultrasound gel, 3/4 full. It has a digital screen, with backlight for late night checking yes I would check her at 3am. It also had volume control, to hide the sound for when DH tells you for the 15th that day to back away from the doppler b/c you just checked on her 5 mintues ago. Yes that happened

I am wiling to part with it for $85.00 + 8.95 flat fee shipping. I will wait till Friday PM to hear from anyone at jlb0017 at aol dot com (first come first serve), then I am listing it else where. I will take pay pal as payment.

thanks

Monday, July 27, 2009

Success!!!

BFing at the zoo, I so proud!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Why do YOU blog?

This question as asked of me the other day...



I recently started a BLOG for the girls to allow family and friends see what we are up to. It kinda came out when I was asked what made me think to start a blog for the girls, I said well I have my own BLOG that no one has read... then the question was asked... The person meant no harm just in my opinion curious as to why I would put my life out there and why was I interested in reading about other people's lives.

At the beginning of my If journey I began to read MAY.DAY.GIRL's Blog, mostly b/c she frequently posted on the nest and I got to know her story. One night I sat and read her Blog from the beginning... I was so impressed not only was she very candid about what she was going through she got was amazing support from her readers... I decided to start blogging b/c I wanted to start to document our journey and if someone happened to read it great if ot no problem too if they did read maybe I would get some support because I was not getting it from the people in my real life.

It felt weird at first talking about my treatment, my feelings and my days with complete strangers, but soon it became my therapy. I allowed myself to be very vulnerable in my writing and allowed these strangers to read, now I have never leaked my Blog to anyone in my real life b/c this was MY place, not even DH has read it, but he knows about it.

After a while I was getting so much support from my readers and I felt some HOPE. I started reading other peoples blog and felt connected to them. And wanted to cheer them on. I have prayed for most of my constant readers and I know they have prayed for me. I have cried tears of joy at posts who have gotten BFPs and cried tears of anger at the BFNs. On some level I feel like I KNOW these ladies personally... I mean how could you not they are spilling their life to us.

Many have become my friends and I will continue to support them all the way through parenthood.

Blogging helps me feel connected to the IF community b/c in my real life I do not get to talk about IF out loud (christy we NEED to get together).

I Blog b/c it has helped me in so many ways and have created a huge support system for me during a time I felt nothing but hopelessness.

So there it is, why I BLOG... WHY DO YOU?

Weekend...

We had a busy weekend, three birthday parties within two days... Crazy.

My BFF was decorating for her son's birthday party and broke her foot from standing on a bar stool, did I mention she is like 20 weeks pregnant! Baby is good but now she may need surgery after the baby is born.

I was determined to not give Camryn a bottle all weekend, b/c I want to BF as much as possible mainly b/c I wanted to prove to myself that I could BF in all situations, and since we would be gone most of Friday and Saturday I decided it was a perfect chance. I did great even at one point i was sitting alone on the bottom deck of my SIL house and a bunch of her friends asked if they could join me, no problem, I just kept BFing and it did not seem to bother them at all.

now I am going to the zoo with the ILs without DH tomorrow hoping BFng will go well there too.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

overwhelmed...

Now this is going to turn into a whinny post bear with me...

Everyone knows I do ebay, I love it and wish I could do it full time. My ebay income is totally makes up for whatever money we need that is NOT in our budget, like stuff for the kids, when cars need inspected and vacations. I was hoping to use my ebay income to pay down some debt this year since last year almost all my ebay for at least half the year went toward fertility treatment.

Well I went back to work last week and we work on grants, I drive alot for my job and we reimbursed through my work. for mileage and wear and tear on my car, which is great b/c I drive SUV. Now my mileage money is worked into my monthly budget, it is usually the same amount every month b/c I drive to the same places every month.

So to get to the point, I have not gotten a check in a while b/c I was on maternity leave, which is fine b/c I had ebay money... I get back to work last week and learned that not only I have to still do my job and drive as normally but they will not be reimbursing mileage checks until further notice... Why you ask... B/c we work in education and our great state has not set a budget yet. Which means all educational services including school districts have not gotten their money yet for the 2009 / 2010 school years. I am grateful they are not laying people off just yet, but it might happen until this gets straightened out. People are worried and so am I.

But since I have not gotten the money I need from mileage in the last few months b/c of being off I have been using ebay money, but now that I am back to work driving like crazy, I am spending money again... Need my mileage check to cover it. This will be coming out of my ebay money... So I figured out what I needed to cover myself for the next two months in order to not rely on my mileage check and it is $1000.00 I nearly passed out. OMG how are we going to do this?

Guess I have to keep reminding myself I am grateful, grateful grateful to have my job and getting my regular pay check.

Monday, July 20, 2009

NEW BLOG NAME

Would love some suggestions!

I am thinking

Parenting Vitamins
A daily dose of advice and inspiration to parents by parents.

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